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Hey pessimist~! I'm an optimistic narcissist!!

[Part I]

I know when you're not okay and I DON'T have to go to your blog or anyone's blog to know it.Yeah I know you know.
It's really obvious because it's written all over you.
It's everywhere, spilling all over.
I can't do anything cause you always say that you're okay when you're not and I know when
you've been thinking.
Like.. REALLY thinking.
Because after you've thought about it, it's the same.
I've seen that emotion before.
I've been that emotion before.
I've heard it one too many times.
And it's bugging me because...
It's not the same atmosphere between us and knowing that I talk to you a LOT,
so YEAH it affects me.
I'm not angry at you.
I don't hate you.
I'm just really really confused.
No, it's not about my happiness.
I'm only happy because I know you're there.
Maybe I don't want to be with you and you expected it because
I don't want to rush
I haven't thought about "us" because
there is no need to.
Why can't we just give time a chance?
I'm that kind.
The kind who can't balance soo many things on her shoulders.
The kind who can't focus on soo many things.
Especially since I'm addicted to wakeboarding!
This addiction is like no other..
And if you know me....
Well, thing is, you don't..
Even if you said you do.
You don't.
I'm that kind...
Whose focus in life is being realistic.
I'm that kind..
Where being with someone is last in my list.
If the world is really gonna end soon,
I'd spend it on soo many other things.
I swear..
Ask my friends...
I'd rather die a virgin than miss all the better things in life...
Like travelling...
Getting car liscence...
cliff jumping...
I know what I've done soo far means soo much to you.
And seems negligible to me.
But it doesn't...
Because everything in life is imporant.
INCLUDING you.
I know how much I mean to you
and how, yet, I've failed to accept it.
I KNOW.
But don't tell me to fix it.
Because I also know that it's not really that important.
I know that that last four words can hurt you.
Because it takes as much for me to say it because KNOWING ME,
there's a part that disagree's with it.
Have you ever asked me what I see in you?
If you bother, please do.
I can sum it all up in one sentence.
Which would explain if you think about it..
But seriously, can you stop thinking about it?
I CAN cause I'm busy thinking of aceing this semester and wakeboad at the sametime.
I really want to try novice.
And I really can't think about us.
There's really no space.
NOt even when it's the hols because YES I still have to study and stuff.
Darling dearest, eventhough you "sense" it and you say you know.
Doesn't mean it's true.
Cause, Like you said....
I'm different...
Eventhough you're 19..
Sorry for nagging..

[Part II]

I SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAY BECAUSE NAZY FORCE ME TO! *PEACE*
YESTERDAY S.C INSTRUCTED ME IN WAKEBOARDING! I'M DAMN HAPPY LAH! DARLING! YOU ARE FREAKING HAWTT! AND PRETTY! AND GAAAH! I WISH I WAS A GUY LAH! (girls can go gaga over girls but guys over guys are just... nono) SHE HAS A GREAT SMILE!!! CAN'T STOP STARING AH! I SWEAR GUYS! IF YOU SAW HER, YOU'D MELT ALSO!!!!! :D

[Part III]

ALWAYS get your info from the first person at hand! What if you don't know the whole story huh? It's called FITNAH! (cheyy) for you non-muslimin dan muslimah's it means, a very big sin for thinking wrongly of a person and believing on something you heard from someone but not first hand. (because it turns out as a lie) Sinful tau. :d

[Part IV]

Check out next season for Part IV
THANKS!

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Never say "You Can't"

Never say you can't because, one day, when you realise you can, you'll regret telling me you can't. Even if it takes time and sacrifices or even a broken heart, always remember that you CAN. And don't tell me you're different. Face reality and in reality, everyone CAN.

Skipped training today due to the major headache. THANKS RAUF for buying me ice mountain and panadol~! :) YOU'RE AWESOME~! *hearts*
We had loads of talks and I know I haven't been answering your questions because I know that I can be wrong. You have a heart of gold and that's what made me stay with you~ :) Just letting you know that my decision was the hardest decision I've ever made my entire life. Worser than my sex change(inside joke) HAH~! And honestly, I've never regretted being with you.
Sometimes you have to lie because the truth will get you no where.

Was supposed to go home but as if on cue, Faisal called and we met up~! GAAAAH~!!! TOTALLY MISS HIM~!! <3 He's been busy with his gf and problems. Dear Faisal's gf, nomatter what happenes, even if he wants to leave you, don't let him. Because I know that deep deep inside, he really loves you and cannot let you go. Even if he makes you cry a thousand times, seeing him seeing you cry for him makes him sadder. And that makes me sad too. I haven't met you yet but from where I'm standing, you are amazing and through his eyes, you are the best. Never give up.

KAAY~! BACK TO THE TODAY~! [Dear ex boyfriend. I know you're reading this... Faisal and I are buddies(and will always be) and you were soo naive.] Met Mafai(Faisal) and Su(Salihin. don't ask why they call him Su). A cockroach crawled up Faisal's pants and it was just hanging from his "middle" area and Faisal freaked out like a girl and the way he shook the cockroach off him was E-P-I-C~!!! Then we went to Su's house cause Faisal tak tau malu go ask Su if his mom cooked. HAHA~! So, we ate at Su's house and I've never ate at a guys house before. THANKS EH FAISAL FOR DRAGGING ME THERE. Tak tau malu~ I actually wasn't hungry but I remembered that my mom said that it's not nice to reject someone's cooking after they've cooked.So, I had some food. FAISAL EAT LIKE A BOY TSEH~! He is a boy but this one ah.. I duno aah~ He eats a LOT! Then Su and I just waited for him. After that, we went to get the soccer ball. Wait at the bus stop, talk about hindi movies.. (HINDI MOVIES~! I am appaled~!) And Faisal actually remembers the beat of the song of one of the movies. Omg my friends are awesome~! O_O
Then after getting the soccer ball, went to play soccer. But not me, I have stool feet (kaki bangku dok). I don't know how to play soccer. Reached the "red block" and met up with more friends (some that I know). And realised that Khalisa(dunno how to spell her name) was there~! WHOA small world. Turns out, her bf is one of Faisal's friends. So, there were only two girls. I think one of Faisal's friends was flirting with me. (long story) but we just talked about shoes because my shoes are sexy. woot woot~ I suppose I clicked well with them. I was just soo happy to see Faisal again and got over-friendly. Like.. more friendlier than I usually was.I think because it was dark. So, I didn't have to bother about how I look or if there were any hawt guys there. Cause my eyesight is terrible in the dark. Nevertheless, seeing Faisal again was a blast.

For your info Faisal, YOU ARE DISGUSTING TSEY~! You know what he do? When we were at Su's house and about to put on our shoes after that dinner, his socks, he go and throw at my face (specifically the nose area). THANK GAWD I WASN'T BREATHING~! Another time is during soccer and he was sweating like a pig. He came to me and purposely brushed his sweat onto me. I thought, "is it raining?"... SICK-O~! I'll get back to you one day you son of a pistol.

Nevertheless, today from awesome to sad to awesome again. Haslan Nasri 8 called mehh~! And the moment I got out of woodlands, he reached woodlands. I want to kill him. rarr~ AND I MISS YOU HASLAN NASRI 8~! hahha~!



#add pad
Hey you,
I like the way you smile at me;
I like the way you talk to me;
I like it when you come to me,
Just to comfort me
I like the way you chat with me
eventhough we're in the same class;
I like the way you push my head back on your shoulder when I'm sleeping,
so it won't bob down.
Hey you,
knowing that it's over,
these things I like about you....
Will it be gone too?
The way I left you?

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Pease people~!

It's a new beginnings and for once, I'm doing thing the opposite of what I really do~ :) Because what matters is PEACE☮, LOVE♥ AND HAPPINESS :) BAYYBEHH~! Stop looking for something according to what YOU wat nto see and look at things at a wider view at every angle. Like they say, "If you want life to be a bed of roses, plant it yourself."


Went to eat with mehh siblings~! then I went to get a haircut~ wooooots~! Love them to bits~! There were mucho several jokes and advertising techniques~ Oh yeah~


My brother and sister was cleaning the windows today and they happen to end up on the same window to clean it. Do you guys know the part where snow white has that singing part and all the animals came to her? Or like the princess in enchanted? Well, my sister did that out the window. And my brother joined. The only thing that came right after that was a moth~ And yet, they both began to run away as my brother starts pushing my sister away from the moth. My sister tried to clean it with MR.MUSCLE but it didn't die. It just stayed there. One moment, my brother was moving the chair and then my sister ask "where's the moth? I think it flew away..." and my brother went like "errr~ I think I squashed it cos when I moved the chair, I heard something go *crck*.". So yes, my brother squashed the moth and my sister just HAD to say "WHAT?! the moth came to help us and you killed it~! D:". HHAAH~ my siblings are trey weird please~

ELIYYA HAMID, I MISS YOU OH SOO VERY~!

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13/11/09


Hello Today~ I love today~ :)

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