☀ Tuesday, December 08, 2009 (12:12 AM)
Hey pessimist~! I'm an optimistic narcissist!!
[Part I]
I know when you're not okay and I DON'T have to go to your blog or anyone's blog to know it.Yeah I know you know.
It's really obvious because it's written all over you.
It's everywhere, spilling all over.
I can't do anything cause you always say that you're okay when you're not and I know when
you've been thinking.
Like.. REALLY thinking.
Because after you've thought about it, it's the same.
I've seen that emotion before.
I've been that emotion before.
I've heard it one too many times.
And it's bugging me because...
It's not the same atmosphere between us and knowing that I talk to you a LOT,
so YEAH it affects me.
I'm not angry at you.
I don't hate you.
I'm just really really confused.
No, it's not about my happiness.
I'm only happy because I know you're there.
Maybe I don't want to be with you and you expected it because
I don't want to rush
I haven't thought about "us" because
there is no need to.
Why can't we just give time a chance?
I'm that kind.
The kind who can't balance soo many things on her shoulders.
The kind who can't focus on soo many things.
Especially since I'm addicted to wakeboarding!
This addiction is like no other..
And if you know me....
Well, thing is, you don't..
Even if you said you do.
You don't.
I'm that kind...
Whose focus in life is being realistic.
I'm that kind..
Where being with someone is last in my list.
If the world is really gonna end soon,
I'd spend it on soo many other things.
I swear..
Ask my friends...
I'd rather die a virgin than miss all the better things in life...
Like travelling...
Getting car liscence...
cliff jumping...
I know what I've done soo far means soo much to you.
And seems negligible to me.
But it doesn't...
Because everything in life is imporant.
INCLUDING you.
I know how much I mean to you
and how, yet, I've failed to accept it.
I KNOW.
But don't tell me to fix it.
Because I also know that it's not really that important.
I know that that last four words can hurt you.
Because it takes as much for me to say it because KNOWING ME,
there's a part that disagree's with it.
Have you ever asked me what I see in you?
If you bother, please do.
I can sum it all up in one sentence.
Which would explain if you think about it..
But seriously, can you stop thinking about it?
I CAN cause I'm busy thinking of aceing this semester and wakeboad at the sametime.
I really want to try novice.
And I really can't think about us.
There's really no space.
NOt even when it's the hols because YES I still have to study and stuff.
Darling dearest, eventhough you "sense" it and you say you know.
Doesn't mean it's true.
Cause, Like you said....
I'm different...
Eventhough you're 19..
Sorry for nagging..
I SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAY BECAUSE NAZY FORCE ME TO! *PEACE*
YESTERDAY S.C INSTRUCTED ME IN WAKEBOARDING! I'M DAMN HAPPY LAH! DARLING! YOU ARE FREAKING HAWTT! AND PRETTY! AND GAAAH! I WISH I WAS A GUY LAH! (girls can go gaga over girls but guys over guys are just... nono) SHE HAS A GREAT SMILE!!! CAN'T STOP STARING AH! I SWEAR GUYS! IF YOU SAW HER, YOU'D MELT ALSO!!!!! :D
ALWAYS get your info from the first person at hand! What if you don't know the whole story huh? It's called FITNAH! (cheyy) for you non-muslimin dan muslimah's it means, a very big sin for thinking wrongly of a person and believing on something you heard from someone but not first hand. (because it turns out as a lie) Sinful tau. :d
Check out next season for Part IV
THANKS!
Labels: love, People Stuff, Responses, wakeboarding, WHOA~
"Oh Bother"
☀ Tuesday, November 10, 2009 (10:32 PM)
Of All Fables
UT's are tormenting the insides of me and everytime there's calculations going on, I feel like retching due to nervousness. 2 out of 5 of my subjects, I am confident. I'm soo gonna get a low GPA for UT1~ :(
I believe I'm a little philophobic. I don't want that one tree to be the cause of me forgetting the entire forest. It shouldn't be. Really. In another way, I don't want one guy to be the cause of me not talking to all my other guy friends. :(
If anyone wants to be with me forever, at least make it worth it. I'm only 17 and still young and fresh~ L.M.A.O~!
I love you Nazy. I really do.
Labels: People Stuff, Responses, school stuff
"Oh Bother"
☀ Thursday, October 01, 2009 (1:17 PM)
This is why I love her
This is my new class and class mates~ woot~! And I asked Nazy if she knows any of them... Read what she said~ Miss squiddish~ LOL (P.S I skipped two postings~ I'll publish it later~!) (click the pictures to see it BIGGER)
Labels: Jokers, People Stuff, Responses, school stuff
"Oh Bother"
☀ Sunday, September 13, 2009 (8:42 AM)
Of the Ichul guitars and wednesday mornings.
In RESPONSE to
Ilchul's Blog......
That time on the 090909, I went to get the guitar from Ilchul and hang out with him (new best guy friend.. hahhahah.... -_- You know I'm not laughing).
Then I ask him to teach me guitar~
Then he ask me what I want to learn..
HOW WOULD I KNOW?!
You're the teacher tseh.
And no tseh~
It wasn't 4 minutes..
More than that okay?
*shifty eyes*
...
You were squiddish too ya know..
How am I supposed to know what I'm supposed to know of guitaring~
I have no knowledge of it..
I don't even know how to strum.
Nobody told me the method of strumming.
Could've started with that. hahhaah~
No guitarist ever taught me strumming or how to handle the guitar~
Iz, Mafai, Leo, Eliyy... No thanks okay?
Eliyy didn't believe I couldn't strum the guitar. hahah~
But at the end of the day, I got to learn how to strum it.
Nananana taught me how to hold it, and how to relax and how to just strum~
Wahh *hearts*
WITH specific instructions.
Then....
happy.
Motivated to go practice some chords..
Now I remember these chords: C, Am, G, D, A & F~ *grins*
But my bro's guitar not tuned..
And, I don't know how to tune it.
And I know that it's very leceh.
So, I'm too lazy to learn THAT. lol
Outcome:
untuned guitar.
I never give up maaan~!
NEVA EVA EVA~!
hahahha~
You think if I learn a song, it would help me better learn the guitar?
I was thinking...
(
Sidetrack: What time is it now uh? I'm hungry ah~ I wanna go get peanut butter. You know, my peanut butter finish~ Someone buy me one. I'm soo lazy~)
Anyway, I was thinking if I could learn a song or something. What song is easy uhk?
@KayabutterToast (dailybooth) said that
I'm Yours by
Jason Mraz is easy.
When I went to check it out, swirls in my eyes... @_@"!
(EASY?! :[ looks complecating)
So I went to look at my current music drug.. lol
The Sounds by The Morning Light seems like an easy one.
However, I don't know how they strum it.
I got confused at what hammer-ons and what pull-offs are~ Buhh~
What's RE-picking?
Ah well.. Eh! I polished Pahan's guitar tseh~ then wasted.. He broke his guitar~ rarrness~
And thanks for the awesomazing picture! lol
Don't need to transfer lah Mr. Semangat.
Labels: Music Stuff, People Stuff, Responses
"Oh Bother"
[Part I]
