I know when you're not okay and I DON'T have to go to your blog or anyone's blog to know it.Yeah I know you know.

It's really obvious because it's written all over you.

It's everywhere, spilling all over.

I can't do anything cause you always say that you're okay when you're not and I know when

you've been thinking.

Like.. REALLY thinking.

Because after you've thought about it, it's the same.

I've seen that emotion before.

I've been that emotion before.

I've heard it one too many times.

And it's bugging me because...
It's not the same atmosphere between us and knowing that I talk to you a LOT,
so YEAH it affects me.
I'm not angry at you.
I don't hate you.
I'm just really really confused.
No, it's not about my happiness.

I'm only happy because I know you're there.

Maybe I don't want to be with you and you expected it because

I don't want to rush

I haven't thought about "us" because

there is no need to.

Why can't we just give time a chance?

I'm that kind.

The kind who can't balance soo many things on her shoulders.

The kind who can't focus on soo many things.

Especially since I'm addicted to wakeboarding!

This addiction is like no other..

And if you know me....

Well, thing is, you don't..

Even if you said you do.

You don't.

I'm that kind...

Whose focus in life is being realistic.

I'm that kind..

Where being with someone is last in my list.
If the world is really gonna end soon,

I'd spend it on soo many other things.

I swear..

Ask my friends...

I'd rather die a virgin than miss all the better things in life...

Like travelling...

Getting car liscence...

cliff jumping...

I know what I've done soo far means soo much to you.

And seems negligible to me.

But it doesn't...

Because everything in life is imporant.

INCLUDING you.

I know how much I mean to you

and how, yet, I've failed to accept it.

I KNOW.

But don't tell me to fix it.

Because I also know that it's not really that important.

I know that that last four words can hurt you.

Because it takes as much for me to say it because KNOWING ME,

there's a part that disagree's with it.

Have you ever asked me what I see in you?

If you bother, please do.
I can sum it all up in one sentence.

Which would explain if you think about it..

But seriously, can you stop thinking about it?

I CAN cause I'm busy thinking of aceing this semester and wakeboad at the sametime.

I really want to try novice.

And I really can't think about us.

There's really no space.

NOt even when it's the hols because YES I still have to study and stuff.

Darling dearest, eventhough you "sense" it and you say you know.

Doesn't mean it's true.

Cause, Like you said....

I'm different...

Eventhough you're 19..

Sorry for nagging..

I SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAY BECAUSE NAZY FORCE ME TO! *PEACE*

YESTERDAY S.C INSTRUCTED ME IN WAKEBOARDING! I'M DAMN HAPPY LAH! DARLING! YOU ARE FREAKING HAWTT! AND PRETTY! AND GAAAH! I WISH I WAS A GUY LAH! (girls can go gaga over girls but guys over guys are just... nono) SHE HAS A GREAT SMILE!!! CAN'T STOP STARING AH! I SWEAR GUYS! IF YOU SAW HER, YOU'D MELT ALSO!!!!! :D

ALWAYS get your info from the first person at hand! What if you don't know the whole story huh? It's called FITNAH! (cheyy) for you non-muslimin dan muslimah's it means, a very big sin for thinking wrongly of a person and believing on something you heard from someone but not first hand. (because it turns out as a lie) Sinful tau. :d

Check out next season for Part IV

THANKS!

"Oh Bother"