A Walk In This Volatile Reminisces

Well, so far… :)

2011-11-08T01:34:00.001+08:00

You secretly look at...........(?)

2011-06-17T23:57:00.001+08:00

You secretly look at...........(?)

Answer here

formspring.me

2011-06-06T20:44:00.001+08:00

---Shoot Me--- http://formspring.me/Monkeymutt

muhhh… because eliyy’s vlogging.

2011-05-25T01:39:00.001+08:00

CRAP, ELIYYA, I FORGOT EVERYTHING I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT ON MY BLOG! I figured I’d put in the content page and pictures first and if I remember any interesting details, I’ll edit. (Click for a larger image)

What I did:

1) Watched wakeboarders wakeboard and helped them take pictures
2) Mamat’s birthday, got him a stormtrooper ring and cake
3) Went out with someone and bought two Star Wars magazines cause I couldn’t decide.

4) Lol What’s a cat and a ribbon put together? HELLO KITTY! get it?

5) I accompanied sis to the shop and I’ll never get a hold of wearing a tudung properly. I’ll stick to shawls.

6) I LEARNED HOW TO WEAR EYESHADOW! first time k? BHlending is annoying.

7) k these are just nice things to wear, watch and eat. :)

CLICK IMAGE TO ENLARGE THEM!

I seem to have found

2011-05-21T04:00:00.001+08:00

A love for shawls. :] This year’s Hari Raya I’m planning to wear shawls with jubah’s / abayah’s. I know it’s not my everyday dress code but really, I like it a lot. So, my sis asked me to model for shawls/hijabs that she’s gonna sell online.. So far, she sucks at taking pictures. So, all the pictures were scraped. My mom didn’t like it. I’ll put up the website sooon!

O_O

2011-05-21T02:44:00.001+08:00

On my previous post, Eliyy pointed out that I said:

“Naked pinoy guy happened. Slept with them till 3pm happened.”

I didn’t sleep with the guy! EWWH! I slept with Eri & Eliyy till 3pm at home. I’m pure okay.

Another blog post

2011-05-15T21:19:00.001+08:00

Well, hello there!! Let me see.. What happened? I don’t really know exactly what happened.. The holidays happened. Slumber “party” happened. Going sentosa with eliyya and eri happened. Cold from the rain at that place at night happened. Went home at 9am happened. Naked pinoy guy happened.Slept with them till 3pm happened. Marshmallow and hot chocolate happened. hmmm.. Mothers day and mothers day cake happened..

Nothing interesting really.. Or, I could put it simply as… HEY I totes forgot what happened most of my days.. ^^

I know I ate these though: homemade vegetarian sandwich, sushi, home made egg sandwich. :)

Yesterday, I bought soo many things. Mom paid for them. heh.. And the accessories, I have to pay eliyy back. heh.. This is what I bought:
One teacup ring
One cat ring (as seen in picture)
One bracelet
One tie-up lacy brown belt
One cotton-on shirt
One cotton-on skirt
One bourjois compact powder
One Maybelline Concealer
One Maybelline Cat-eye mascara

So, yeah! yay! Spendthrift I am. I know I’m 19 and yet my mom pays for my stuff.. Thing is, she won’t let me pay for them. Until I’ve worked. But don’t worry. I’m still paying for most of my stuff.. ^^ have to save up 80 bucks for the ASOS top and the rest of the accessories Eliyy paid for meh. heh.

So I made this Money Jar out of the Salsa Dip Jar. :) Soo gurly but hey! It’s nice. I made an origami rose cube too! Boredom.

So, I made an Annakin Skywalker inspired braid cause I think he’s cool :)

AND IT’S SUPER NICE K!

Speaking of Star Wars, here’s a picture of the cast. The girl played as Leia Skywalker. SHE SOO CUTE AND PETITE!!!! <3 She’s only 5’1”. (155) and I’m 150. lol. I feel fat.. she’s soo gorjuzly skinny.

Izzah came over yesterday too! (That’s how she paid for my stuff lol)

Anyway, this is my niece Qistina. She’s smart.. HAHA Yesterday we were in the car on our way to the hospital (my aunt gave birth to a baby boy!) and I told her “no more candy for you! you’re high” I meant to say hyper but shortened it to high. Apparently, she thought I was calling her tall. So, while we were in the lift in the hospital with 5 other strangers. She went “I’m hiiigh!!! I’m HIGH AS THE SKYYY!!!!!! Can you(me) lend me your phone?? I want to tell mummy I’m high!!!” So, yeah. SHIT. People in the elevator were laughing and giggling.. hahhahah!

We got to the ward and she said to my aunt, “Aunty!! I hope your baby will be as high as me!!” And she twirled around and around.And you know, she has this squeaky voice, all hyped up. She also mentioned at one point “kakak (sister) gave me something and then it made me high!! :D”
I taught her the wrong word. :(

THAT’S IT K BYE!

A boggart appears in front of you. What did it shapeshift into? (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magical_creatures_in_Harry_Potter#Boggarts)

2011-05-03T15:55:00.001+08:00

A boggart appears in front of you. What did it shapeshift into? (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magical_creatures_in_Harry_Potter#Boggarts)

Answer here

“In case of fire, do not use the elevator”

2011-04-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

“Why would I do that? We use water”. Words of wisdom by Nikesh. hahaha!! Anyway, the above and the following pictures have been taken in school. Was with my wakeboarders and we came across this gorgeous butterfly helpless on the floor. I picked it up and put it on al my friends. haha. AND IT’S BLUE!! :D

Then, the wind blew and it got lost somewhere on the ground. Hopefully nobody steps on it.

The above picture is the effect of dry ice and water. Coincidently, I used a ceramic Christmas glass. The picture beside it is my vanity kit. Witty isn’t it? I stuffed all my other moustache’s in it. =..=”

Last last Saturday, 16th April, a day before school started, Eliyy and I went super shopping! WE SPLURGED! WHOO! I spent on a pair of Culottes from G2000, a boat-necked top from NET, a pair of shoes from ruby’s a super pretty hear-shaped golden necklace from Accesorize. I AM SATISFIED! Oh and a pair of sweatpants from Adidas. We ate at Fish & Co. (Or is it Fish something?) Okay we had fish. WHICH WAS AWESOME! No regrets on my choice of food! and Eliyy’s! SUPER TASTEYH!

I don’t know if I’m going backwards or forwards. But there’s a point during the holiday that I went to East Coast Beach with Lina. Apparently, there was a sand-castle building thingy earlier in the day or something. AWESOME! :D

So, I made a finger friend. Want some food?

<okay bye!

FYPYF

2011-03-21T20:48:00.001+08:00

I’m in school right now and we’re all slacking. Thing is, we can’t do anything till we’ve collected enough fruit waste for our project. I’ve been playing Virtual Villagers, Sarah’s playing Dragon something and Farawr is currently watching something and laughing.. So, yeah.. It’s really dark and I’m freaking bored.

I had oreo ice-blend bubble tea and you know what sugar does to me and what milk does to me right? (For those who don’t know, I get hyperactive and I’m lactose intolerant.. So, now I feel like:

I really can’t help it..

Last night, or more so, this morning at 2 something AM, someone I once cared soo much about and then ditched me and made me hate soo much talked to me. No wait, CONFESSED to me. You have no idea how that just made my entire year. :) Eventhough I still don’t feel like I could trust him with what he said, I feel pretty awesome knowing that even if it WAS a lie, it was a very tedious lie meant for me and even THAT made me smile. The thought that this person would actually lie to me that much is just awesome.. And if it wasn’t a lie, well, perhaps, I might just fall for this asshole who broke my heart right? Of course I would want to take the chance and of course I would be absolutely careful this time. NO *coughing*!

My previous date was a disaster. Pree and Eliyy knows the amount of guys who shocked me with *coughs* I half expected and fully didn’t want. I DIDN’T EVEN HAVE TO DO ANYTHING! –..- I know you may think “eurgh.. she’s such a slut.. bragging as if all the guys want her..” No really, I really don’t want it. Especially cause I don’t have feelings for them.. (ITS NOT SOO MANY GUYS LAH OKAY!) As I was saying, on my previous date, I literally pulled my head back and said very clearly “NO *coughs* ON THE FIRST DATE!”. I really REALLY didn’t want any.. Especially not from this friend of mine. But NooOOoOoOO, it just HAD to happen. And I was fucking traumatised. Forever. I will bring a scotch tape. And don’t tell me I misled the person. Cause you know what I was doing? I was trying to balance a “silly band” on my nose. And giggling. When that person said “Amirah, I want to tell you something. Can you please be serious??” I said okay.. And when he was going to say that he loves me, I said “I’m wondering if this could hang on YOUR nose.” So, no, I was SURE this time that I wasn’t trying to steal a *coughs*. Ballz..

Thus, I shall eat garlic a lot. :D

I’m not tempting you! >:|

GOODNIGHT WORLD! Home time~!

Raise up the Red Flag

2011-03-20T23:45:00.001+08:00

I’m so lazy today. I just want to roll down the stairs.

You know, I’ve been pretty sick I guess.. For the past two months.. Boys should never read my blog.. So personal. hahah Especially Merhan. heheheh. 2 months straight, I had 2 periods in one month. That’s why I said Merhan has to stop reading my blog. And Mimz too.. If you still are. –.– Anyway, yeah.. can you believe it? Absolutely unhealthy.

Maybe the extra blood came from my heart.
I’m losing it.

Ha.

So, I FINALLY HAVE MY PLUGS!

PURRDYYYY~!!! Wearing the Sparrows now. What’s with me and Sparrows and Dubstep and Skrillex and Star wars nowadays? Well, It’s always been StarWars but still! D:

So, anyway, I haven’t been wakeboarding since BEFORE my birthday. Because the last time I Wakeboarded was with Dorcas and I haven’t met up with her since 3rd feb. So, ZOMG I NEED TO WAKEBOARD LIKE FUUUU~!

You know, I really like learning hairstyles…

I did like, a spiral Dutch braids on my hair.. AWESOOME!

Virtual Villagers now. BYE!

PUKE

2011-03-16T14:56:00.001+08:00

It’s been awhile since I last updated. heh. All you stalkers, sorry to disappoint you. :/

I don’t know where to begin. Firstly, Black Swan the movie was impressive. It’s not about dancing ballet guys. It’s about the characters. :]

Actually, I feel lazy to blog about anything. heh. All I know is that, the last few days, I’ve realised that some people are doing things for different reasons compared to what you’re thinking. Nevertheless, it’s always mindfucking if you think the other way around. Especially when he/she:

Makes you something from scratch. Like a lightsaber.
Puts their arms around you so that you could smell them.
Pinches your cheeks in front of strangers and tells them you’re cute.
Comes to talk to you about random things.
Says your name in a very unique way.
Offers to punch the face of the guy who hurts you.
Telling you you’re the cutest person they’ve ever met.
Calling you Princess/Padme. After you call them Annakin Skywalker. (Star Wars people would understand this)
Tells you they love you in the middle of a teasing fist fight which has no relevance/gives no reason to them telling you they love you.

In a bus filled with people sitting beside his own bestfriend.

What sucks is, that very person, he/she:

Suddenly ignores you
Doesn’t reply to simple texts
Wasn’t there when you needed them
Makes you feel like a rebound

Even after you:

Not only hug them and make them feel genuine but you hug other people too
always been there for them when they needed you
Simply texts “may your grandmother get well soon!”
Not even texts like “Hey, I feel really shitty right now and for once I need a friend like you to be here.”

To think cause they’re overseas, they wouldn’t get the text.
Even after they came back, they never even acknowledged you existence.

Thus, everyone should have a stone cold heart.

Oh btw, I learned another new hairstyle.

A ribbon. out of haiiir~! Kawaii-nehh!

Brain in a Vat

2011-03-06T02:25:00.001+08:00

I was listening intently as my dad talks to me about how god is always there in your mind.
What’s on earth belongs on earth and when we die, we go to heaven, we loose everything we have on earth. etcetera etcetera. The devil on the other hand is mindfucking you into doing/thinking things we’re not supposed to. I don’t know but dad’s really good at telling stories like these. Whatever it is, he made me remember about the “Brain in a Vat” concept and relate them.

Basically, I’ve had this thought for quite some time.. So, when I told Eliyy, it was a bad idea cause she had thought about it before too.. Thing is, I never told anyone about my brain in a vat concept cause well, it wasn’t very much. Eliyy gave me the most nonchalant look of all. The philosophy of “Brain in a Vat” is basically like…

What if what you see now is just your imagination? What if all this while, you’re in a huge coma or you only exist as a brain? But you’re given an image that you’re human. You have eyes and everything. What if what you see is all caused my electromagnetic waves passing through your brain, affecting the nerves that causes you to see these real-life images. That itch you have at the back of your ear could just be a glitch in the system since it’s been taking care of you for a long time. What if what you see is really what you want to see? You know when people die? Maybe, what they’re experiencing is a system failure. A point where you see that years had passed and this person is getting older cause it’s in sync with that person’s electronic system and that system’s deteriorating. Or a point where you WANT to experience such grief. The perfect life. It has to be complete. All you are, is a brain. Just that. I mean, you can never look at your own brain can you? Everything in front of you is a 3D mirage. Images you feel and touch. or so it seems.

There’s another concept. The experience machine. Lets say, you have reality and there’s these scientists who want to put you into a deep sleep and place you in a SIMULATED reality. The simulated reality is triggered by all the things you want and you want to see or experience. The pleasures. The perfect life. It’s not like a dream but it feels real. You can smell it, you can touch it. You can have feeling when you’re in that dream. Honestly, EVERYTHING YOU EVER WANTED TO HAPPEN WOULD HAPPEN. That boy you wanted to date, you’d date him. You want to dump him, you dump him. You want everything to be okay after that dump, everything’s back to normal. The man of your dreams, how you’d meet him, you meet him. That car you’ve ever wanted, you get it. And I don’t mean, fictionally, it appears out of nowhere. I mean, it happens on a real-life basis. Like, you earn your dream job for it. Out of nowhere, your singing becomes the most amazing thing anyone had ever heard and you’re instantly famous. Your mom allows you to be who you are. The world is greener, cleaner. There’s no war. Everything really feels like real life. Quite like inception but more, based on what you want.

So, would you pull the plug of your machine or would you prefer to stay in that simulated dream?

The argument is along these lines:

P1: Experiencing as much pleasure as we can is all that matters to us

P2: If we will experience more pleasure by doing x than by doing y, then we have reason to do x.

P3: We will experience more pleasure if we plug into the experience machine than if we do not plug into the experience machine.

C1: If all that matters to us is that we experience as much pleasure as we can then we have reason to plug into the experience machine.

P4: We have reason not plug into the experience machine.

C2: Experiencing as much pleasure as we can is not all that matters to us.

So, how?

Indeedio

2011-03-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

I HIDE MY MAKE UP SMEARED EEEYYYEEES~!! *cries black tears of eternal sorrow*

Zygomatic Bone

2011-02-26T02:11:00.001+08:00

Lol I just read your blog eliyy and you mentioned ur defined cheekbones. I just did that to a picture of me in my blog. Jinx. You can’t speak till I say your name. HAHAHAHAHAHAH

I’m pretty bored now. Sleep lah..

It’s been a while.

2011-02-26T01:55:00.000+08:00

HI! SO, THIS WAS WHAT I TYPED ON 17th February:

Okay. There's quite a few things I went through these coupla weeks.

By the way, ask me how I have the time to do this now. I'm actually typing out my blog in the middle of a big test. 15 minutes into the test, I pretty much gave up. Everything's so technical in this bloody rDNA module. Yes, I might just have to re-take it and lose my chance of being in this year's IVP. Honestly, I'm not too keen into participating in the IVP's. I pretty much just simply gave up. Well, not exactly but I've proved to my self well enough that I'm just not that good in the IVP's. I'm pretty good in leisure time but honestly, I'm not too keen in competitions. Oh look:

So,

Firstly, Bosom's birthday. Why Bosom? Because of Eri. What's the link? Here: (picture) So, it was Bosom's birthday and I was invited~! WHOOOO! There were two events on that day. Eri's Birthday and Eliyya's Impressario audition. Singing of course! How else would she impress? Modelling? Can lah but the way she walk like penguin. Too cute already. Should join kids modelling. HAHHAAHAH! Hi Eliyy. :] Anyway, I can't explain what it was like. I mean, if you want details, go to Eliyy's Blog. I'm not a detailed person. Eliyy is. It's like. If I had a car, I'd forget where I put my car keys an hour later and then I'd call Eliyy up and she'll tell me exactly where I put it. She didn't even have to meet me whatsoever. She's like my subconscious. Anyway, that happened with my wallet. Back to Bosom's birthday. Three words: Karaoke, laughing, dancing. :] (pictures) So, in the middle of all that partying, we went to International Building where Eliyy's supposed to sing at. She sung a really nice song. :] THE PLACE WAS HUMONGOUS BTW~! Massive karaoke room for the fat priests. (I wanted to say king but priests seem to have more impact) No offence meant~! I meant in a more metaphorical way. On our way back, we came across two of the singers that performed earlier. Apparently, they're baskers and the guy had a SUPER NAIZE VOICE!

Secondly, 3rd February.(secondly, third?) A very important day for me because I turned 19 and Eliyy has finally been declared as part of my family. :'] Before that day itself, I kinda felt shitty. I don't know why but every time before my birthday, I seem to want it my way but that day, honestly, I never planned anything big for my birthday. Not even a morning out with my bff. So, the day before, I just felt like I needed the beach with me. Eliyya borrowed the Let-if's tent and we both headed for Pasir Ris beach. Just the two of us. Invited Nazirah but she was busy. Anyway, I was in my casual shitty top, jeans and blue chucks. As always, Eliyy looked stunning. I don't know. Sometimes, all she wears are trackkie bottom's and a zebra t-shirt and she still looks better than I did. She's just that hot lah. So, we went to pitch our tent, sat inside, chatted, finally get to hear Eliyya's voice again. Totally awesome~!! :D She sang in SUGAR'S ACCENT also~! Not bad~! <3 Twannies are osm~! It rained somewhere in the middle (I was kinda hoping it rained. It's nice when it rains.) Then it stopped. But it began to rain again just as we were packing. We were also looking for one of the pikes which got lost somewhere in the soil in the dark. Oh gawd. That took us half an hour to 45 minutes to look for. So, yeah. Stopped by Macdonalds to eat. It was all good yo~!! On my birthday itself was awesome too~!!! FREAKING LOVE IT LUHH~! I NEVER HAD SURPRISES BEFORE~! MY ENTIRE 19 YEARS OF MY LIFE~! <3 Eliyy, Merhan and Eri surprised me at my house. :D SO HAPPY! IT WAS FUNNY ACTUALLY~! I never thought anybody would come. So, I was in my room, with all the shit. Doing my own work on the laptop. I heard someone ringing the doorbell. I thought, my cousins lah. So, I ignored. Then people barged into my room and screamed “SURPRISE!”. Lol. I thought it was my cousins right? So, I chilled. THEN I REALISED THAT IT WAS ELIYY MERHAN AND ERI~!!! HAHAHAHHAHA! I took a glance and then I screamed. BLOODY SURPRISED~! I was there thinking “OH SHIT MY BEDROOM~! oh wait my bedroom’s fine.. hehe ^^ but OMG O_O” . They got me a cake WHICH IS SOOO GOOOD!!! It has peanut butter in it~! OMG <3 Merhan got me a Darth Vader T-shirt which WAS FO-SHIZZLE MAH NIZZLE~!! Eri already gave me her present to me~! which was a planner remember? On the day I BOUGHT a planner. D: After that, Merhan went to meet his parents for something I don’t remember and Eri had a family gathering. :] So, my family is supposed to have some family birthday dinner. So, mom asked me to invite Eliyy along. And when mom said “She’s like part of the family already what.” I smiled. :) I said it to Eliyy in the most nonchalant tone ever but honestly, I’m SOOO HAPPY LAH OMG <3 It’s like those bff books I read. Hahaha! So, we had an awesome birthday dinner at a Turkish restaurant in Arab street. Eliyy told her mom she’s joining us. :] During that, I got my presents! :D Which was a REALLY GORGEOUS BAG and A NEW PHONE! THE ONE I WANTED! Sony Ericsson Xperia Mini Pro. :) WORKS AWESOME!!! WHOO ANDROIDS! Makes me feel more like a Star Wars Fan. :) After my parents went home, we, us kids, went sheesha.(With parent’s consent) :] My bro, sis, eliyy, me and younger sis. :) APPLE AND PEACH IS SOOO GOOD~! Soo many things happened like SUFIII and That 70’s show, poison Ivy, Red Bull, disconnected hookah. The amount of giggles we had~! HAHAHA! Then we all squeezed into a mini cooper van. Okay no. It’s just a car as mini as a mini cooper. Okay, I exaggerated but that’s what the word van was for. It’s slightly bigger. We headed downtown. (Downtown East I meant) To catch a movie. SHAOLIN~! 2am movie and it was only like, what? almost 12am? HAH! Meantime, we played at the arcadee!!! And I saw this hot girl who works at the arcade. I swear I wanted to ask for her number. She’s kinda tomboy-ish with a freakin sexy voice I swear I want to date her. UGHH! <3 And she didn’t have to look like a boy. Her hair so cute lah. OMG I SO JEALOUS! I WANT HER LAAH! HAHA dramatic. Anyway, we played soooo many games and won soooo many arcade tickets! and we got soo many random useless things you could buy without tickets. lol. The thing about arcades. –.- Eliyy and I got ourselves a mega pen longer than the size of your dick/boyfriend’s dick/future boyfriend’s dick (circle where appropriate). I got myself a hippopotamus sticker which is suuuper cute also! haha! and the rest got other stuff. The pen’s skin-scribble-ble. Which meant it’s an awesome pen if u can scribble it on ur skin. hahah So, then we watched out movie and I SWEAR THE WORLD HAS TO WATCH IT! DAMN EGGCITING! haha.

Tenting:

Home Surprise:

Skin-scribbable pen:

6th February, made a giant tea cake/Smores for Nazy~!

7th feb – Post-Birthday Star Wars Day. I wore Merhan’s t-shirt to school. I mean, the one he gave me. And on that day, my dear Mamat gave me a lightsaber display he MADE for me from scratch. :) I love my boys that way. hahah SO SWEET LAH! AND IT HAS A BUTTON OMG~! <3

My Presents: Plugs – Dorcas, Darth Vader T-shirt – Merhan, Planner – Eri, Star Wars T-shirt – Eliyya, Lightsaber Nightlight – Nadia, Lightsaber display – Mohamed. <3 I LOVE YOU ALL!

The next day, had to study at home right? I got bored somewhere in the middle of studying so I snooped around in my own cupboard and found old floppy discs. Googled what to do with them and I learnt how to make a new notebook.:

In the weekend before my last UT, I drew sparrows on my wall. Inspired by my plugs. :) It’s my photo wall. Hung my Polaroid's up. And I also drew a mind map of the entire 6 episodes of Star Wars in my enjoy book. lol. I bought a gorgeous cheap notebook initially for school but it’s too pretty and the space is too little for notes. So I used it as a book for every question I have in my head and all the goodthings that make me smile. Not exactly like a diary where I ramble. More like pieces of memories. Inspired by the Insomnia book Shay gave to Eliyy and The Happy Book.

Period’s first kill: midnight snacks. haaa.. And the three letters of my life that I made for future me. Inspired by time capsules concepts.

Last day of school I think. Last day we’ll be in class together. :) I LOVE W65B!!! <3

Did I tell you Eliyya got me an eraser sculpted like a sheep from australia? AND IT’S BLUE~! <3 And my younger sis got me a kitty keychain. :)

14 to 17 february – UT (17th february, went rollerblading with Nadia.)

(THIS IS ME TODAY CONTINUING WHAT I TYPED ON 17th FEB)

18th february:

Went to Salvation Army and Chinatown for the first time with Nadia, Farawr and Eliyya. :) This was the day Nadia gave me my present. Lightsaber nightlight at Blick. I purchased a new sweater from S.A and chopstick from Chinatown. lol. It was getting dark, shops closing.

21st february – My first pair of heels. A ccompanied by Nadia. She’s awesome and patient and gives really good advice I swear. :)

It may look officey but honestly, it goes with everything!

23rd feb – cinema and movie with old sec school friend. I got curls my own way (whooo cheekbones~!) :

Finally, MY HAMSTER SOO CUTE!:

Listen to:

What You Waiting For - Mizz Nina feat. Colby O' Donis

So I was at the bus stop.

2011-01-27T22:11:00.001+08:00

And then I saw this guy. He’s sort of good looking but just not my taste kinda thing? Anyway, from the corner of my eye, I noticed him looking my way. So basically, I thought it’ll be nice to just be friendly and smile. So for once when I looked at him, he looked at me straight in the eye and I smile. The face he made was:

So, I’m like:

He’s one of those guys who think that when a girl stares at him, the girl is flirting with him and stuff. Well, that’s annoying by the way. I looked his way, doesn’t mean I’m staring at him nor does it mean that I find him cute whatsoever.

Anyway, when I saw these plugs:

I was like:

THEY ARE SOO NAIZE! My wakeboard gf bought me the black sparrow and I bought the other two. So,

AWESOME!!!! ^^

Witwicky

2011-01-23T01:24:00.001+08:00

Ripped this from ELIYY’S BLOG~! Her sister took it! I never got a picture of it because my own block was blocking it. I’M SOO EXCITED FOR TOMMOROW!!! Anyway, I just want to mention a conversation….

Me: D: you’re such a nipple!
Mamat: I’m a nipple? Would you like to twist me?

Okay. I mentioned that because it was just really funny. At my point of course. Anyway, I learnt how to do those pin-up hairstyles.

okay goodnight!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE! WHAT IS LOVE?!

2011-01-20T01:37:00.001+08:00

Had a great chat with Eliyy and a not so great one with an rp friend. Motherfo. Firstly, what is love? Why do people claim that they hate falling in love? Why do they take “love” as THINGS?! Firstly,

LOVE IS A FEELING AND NOT A THING! When you fall out of love, you’re not in love! It’s not so complicating! When you feel a liking for someone, you just freakin like them!

Someone on Facebook, status-ed that he “hates girls” and is so heartbroken and all. The very same person who freaking charmed me and some of my friends into liking him and then ditching us. The very same person who used pitiful reasons to KISS us and make us think he loves us. KARMA FUCKING WORKS ASSHOLE.

So, I was telling my rp friend the situation and you know what he said? “All girls are blind. And some are poisonous.” Apart from that, he says that girls are blind to see what men sacrificed for them. May this boy be burned in the Deathstar. (by the way, he liked me – or still does- but i never gave him a chance because why? Honestly, i’m not into him at all and he asked why i never gave him a try.) So what did I say?

“NOT EVERY GIRL IS SOME KIND OF THING YOU CAN CLASSIFY INTO. NOT EVERY GIRL IS BLIND AND NOT EVERY GIRL IS POISONOUS~! People DO get married and people DO end up happy together~! IT's a matter of how you chose them and it's a matter of how you treat them. I see every guy as a new being. Including you and every guy is different. Including you. And I don't want to know what it would be like if we ended up together because sometimes, i could already predict. So, I guess, yeah, girls are blind when it comes to a guy who can charm them. That's why the word "charm" is invented. If I charmed you, and ditch you, you would've been blind too. I have had a boyfriend in which I sacrificed so much for and he was blind to see. Nobody's perfect but there's always a perfect someone for you and you can't classify people into categories or stereotype them from what you THINK you see. They may wear the same clothes, talk the same way but like a fingerprint, they're all different. I for instance, am not blind to see. neither do I poison people. So, like what? if 20 guys like me the same time, are you all going to say the same thing huh? do i get together with all 20 guys just to TRY?”

So, yeah. Do I LOOK like I want to go on 20 freakin dates and flirt with them? Do I freakin look the type at all? The main point is that not every girl is a bitch like you lot had so over-dramatically exaggerated! Get a life okay.
It’s okay if a guy dates like, 100 women but you guys know that it’s NEVER a good thing when a girl does that. We have respect for ourselves and in terms of girl-boy situation, everybody knows that men are alpha-males and they’re meant to lead a pack. Girls? We lead a pack and we’re called sluts/flirts by OTHER GIRLS. Stop asking us to give you a “TRY”. Stop blaming us when all we say was the truth!

LIKE WHEN I SAY I WOULDN’T FALL FOR YOU, I GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING WOULDN’T BECAUSE I KNOW MYSELF AND EVEN IF I TRY, THE FUCKING HARSH TRUTH IS THAT I WILL FUCKING BREAK UP WITH YOU AND BREAKING UP WITH YOU WOULD MEAN YOUR HEART IS GOING TO BE BROKEN LATER THAN IT SHOULD’VE BEEN WHERE IT FREAKIN HURTS LESS! CAN’T YOU ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I DON’T WANT TO BREAK YOUR HEARTS ANY LATER THAN HOW IT’S BEEN BROKEN?!

SO, YEAH, YOU’D SAY “BUT IT’S ALREADY BEEN BROKEN.” WHY COULDN’T YOU JUST EXPECT THAT?! WHY’D YOU GET BLINDED BY WHAT YOU THINK WE FEEL? WHY DIDN’T YOU ASK US HOW WE REALLY FELT?! WHY’D YOU HAVE TO AGREE TO EVERY FIRST THING WE SAID? WHY CAN’T YOU GUYS TAKE A HINT?! WE ALL HAVE MINDGAMES AND IF WE CAN FIGURE OUT YOURS, YOU CAN FIGURE OUT OURS!

Fuck it. Starwars is the shit and my dream man has to love watching Starwars with me on a couch in the living room where the TV is right in front of us and we’re eating chips getting mindfucked with all the Starwars soundeffects. Oh and guess what? We’ll be in our cool Starwars PJ’s. THIS is love.

Actually

2011-01-17T21:59:00.001+08:00

Emm, I want you to be with me forever and ever as a friend. ^^ I don’t want to be that girl you’d be different around. I don’t want to be different either. Lets just be friends okay? ^^ *hugs*

GOODBYE FRIENDSHIP~!!!

2011-01-16T16:41:00.001+08:00

Eliyy wants me to update. HAh… Last Thursday, was my dad’s birthday. Bought him a new phone in which he exchanged with mom for the iphone. haha.. Wadahel. After training was insane. At school, there’s this “secret” bathroom in which Dorcs, ShawMat and I knows. (ShawMat is Shawn and Mamat but they’re like conjoined twins. metaphorically speaking.) We wanted to show Fiq this “secret” bathroom but Ashk was there. Me and Dorcs went to the “secret” bathroom first. So, Shawmat went to the normal cold bathroom with fiq and Ashk. We apparently don’t like Ashk so the guys “pretended” to enter the bathroom but ran away while he was still in it. Haha. Bloody assholes. Anyway, I like this guy “Emm”. Just a little bit though. And that day, he invited me to watch a movie. The day before, we were chatting about watching horror films and Starwars and stuff. So, I thought we were going to watch a horror film and he said “actually, it’s a romance film.” *giggles* Wtf. So, we were going to watch the movie on Saturday. Which was yesterday. (I’ll get to that) After that, he game me his hardrive and asked me to pass him all the Starwars Episodes. :D That night, I put them all in and left him a note that’s about how awesome he is. I just complimented him but as-a-friend kind of way.

On Thursday, the topic for the module I had was awesome and awesomely fun. O_O I gave Emm his hardrive back and left to eat. Nothing much there. Remember about the factual story where a random stranger told me I look cute. It made me feel good yeah? Well, I decided to do that. Compliment a stranger. On my way home, I was telling Sarah how goodlooking the dude upfront in the bus queue was. And when we went up the double deck, there were only 2 pairs of seats left (pairs?) and each of these pairs were preoccupied by someone. One of them was that guy and immediately, Sarah, who was infront of me, sat at the OTHER seat so I would end up sitting beside that guy in which I complimented earlier. Sarah texted me and said that she just wants to laugh so hard but she couldn’t. I texted back saying that I’m going to tell him he looks good. HAH! wtf why did I say that? Right before I left the bus, I had written him a note. I couldn’t show it on text msg cause well, he was asleep. So, as I was about to leave the note on his sweater (that he left on his bag), his eyes began to open. THAT was when I started to tremble. My hands were like so nervous and I mentally conversed with myself, “oh shit shit shit shit shit!!!!” So, from then I felt soo stupid cause I just quickly left the note on his sweater and got up really fast and left with my hair covering my face like a pontianak. I was damn scared please! I looked horrible on that day. So, I didn’t want him to really LOOK at me you know. I got off the bus trembling. So kental. But thank god I finally complimented someone. It felt good. ^^ Making someone’s day. (though, I’m not sure if it made his day or freaked the hell out of him.) hah So, yep! That night, Sarah told me that he was looking around and he put the note in his bag. hahahha Please don’t let him remember my face. (Though I secretly want him to.) Emm went online and told me the the note I left for him was adorable. :D Aww! I’m so shy now. hahah. OH YEAH ELIYYA WAS THERE! totally forgot that after I got off the bus, Eliyya met up with me to buy fake eyelashes for 23rd. ^^ She came over my place and decided to sleep over. Anyway, in that conversation, Emm and I chatted about the next day’s plans. He was telling me that after his training with his 2 friends, he would tell them that he was gonna go meet his other friend and meet up with them later. SOO SWEET PLEAXE! He’s ditching them to watch a romance movie (Love & Drugs) with me! hahaha SOO HAPPY!!!! But Emm always treats me as a friend and nothing more. Which was AWESOME!

So, YESTERDAY, which was Saturday, Eliyy was supposed to be home at 8am but ended up leaving with me at 1:30PM.Wadafuk. Now she can’t sleepover at my house anymore. (But I doubt her mom’s “anymore” meant forever) hah. So, I left to meet Emm and I was gonna be late. We were supposed to meet at 2PM but I only just left at 1:30PM. And we were supposed to meet at the new mall at Serangoon. That place is HUGE and AWESOME btw. (lol that’s what she said.) So, on my way there, Emm told me that he was gonna be half an hour late. YAY! and asked me to buy the tickets first and told me that one of his friends is comming. Wadafuuuk. And yes ofcourse I know that friend of his cos he’s also my friend. hah. After I got that text, I rolled my eyes soo hard. Soo hard it might just roll off of my eye sockets. By the way, I was so calm on my way to meet Emm prolly cause we’ve known each other for like, half a year already. Hah. And I’ve known his friend for 2 years already. So, all this was cool and it’s more like a friendly outing to watch an M18 romantic movie. hahahah! wadahel. A girl and 2 guys. we got there the same time and all I did was roll eyes at them hahaha. Cause they were late and I was late and yay. We both got there at exactly 2:45PM for the movie, got the tickets, got in, got to our seats and the movie hasn’t even started. WOOHOO! Perfect. No time wasted. I sat inbetween them with Emm on my right. Should have left the two boys sitting side by side. This movie has got PORN in them! haha! Anne Hathaway has really nice huge tits btw.

<<< HOLLIE SHIIIT! <3 (google her and you can see titty pictures of her) X3

Sidetracked. Anyway, THE MOVIE IS SOO BLOODY SWEET! GO WATCH PEOPLE! (no no not watch people. I meant, people, go watch it.) During a sex scene, Emm’s friend (who’s my friend too) said “omg I love this movie!” and all the way Emm was pretty quiet. At the end of the movie, I THINK EMM CRIED cause it was just that sweet. All I know was that his eyes were watery and he didn’t defend himself when I teased him about crying. He rested his head on my shoulder. hahah. And I rested my head on his head. For a dyude with curly-ish hair, his hair was really soft. Then, they went for a smoke break (over here, he tried on my sweater and it made him look like an ah beng in tight clothes.) then we decided to go to Starbucks for a hot drink. He got Hot chocolate with whipped cream on top cause it was soooo bloody cold! (check check, it was raining that day) So, I wanted to make his nose touch the whipped cream. haha. He offered me his drink and I rejected of course. I can’t have milk. Anyway, they were just talking about SO MANY THINGS! I had no idea how one thing led to another. First about Starwars, about him wanting to get the same ring as mine, him wearing my ring and talking to it. By the way, he is the only guy who can fit into my ring. No other guy could. I felt that my fingers were fat. But then again, it was still loose for me. Then, he started mentioning about his future. His friend also. He mentioned about wanting four kids and how he’ll cry while having sex with his wife cause she’s gonna suffer for 9 months and at the birth of his children, he’ll cry cause it was his fault. DAMN CUTE LAH! (I’m giggling while typing this) He is so merepek please. His friend (in which I stress, is my friend too) couldn’t stop laughing until his face turned red. Then he said that he wants his kids to be a year apart so that four years straight, he could panic about PSLE, O’Levels, A’Levels, Uni and stuff like that. During Hari Raya, after his kids gets married and has children, his grandchildren would all run after him and jump on him and it would be very cute. (Like the gremlins hor) He would of course stop smoking the moment he gets married and his friend made a bet with him that if his abs fail to maintain and he grows a tummy, he owes his friend a Jack Daniels Cannon. (I think Jack Daniels) He said that he wants a wife who can tolerate his bullshit. He said this to his “imaginary” kids, “Kids, my job is to irritate you, you irritate your mom.” SO CUTE! He mentioned that he will purposely make one kid annoy the other and stuff. *sigh* He told me “you see, solid guys don’t have girlfriends and go; “I want a girlfriend and break up with her cause we’re young.” we’re the type that really looks into the future for a reason. ”. And he was also indirectly referring to the note I left in his hardrive (I mentioned that the world should have more people like him.) which explained his deep eye contact. He said that the only reason why he’s aiming for his degree is the future of his own kids. ^^ You know, that was like whoaaa~! That’s the kind of guy I like. Hilarious men with serious ambitions. :) (not to mention that he LOVES STARWARS!) After that, we went out for another smoke break. They had the cigarettes, I had the smoke. *coughs* they were talking about Jess__ (yeah I know her) and how cute she is. I, out of ego, went (in a joking way) “cuter than me?”. His friend said “If she was skinnier, she would be as cute AS you. So, I laughed at that compliment and he said “I’m serious! You’re really cute! When I saw your passport photo, I’d totally date you if I were Malay.” (if. because he’s Chinese and his parent’s won’t allow him). Then Emm said “Amirah is Amirah. Cannot compare. I’d date her! I’d TOTALLY DATE HER!” (I blushed at this point) But I wonder why he doesn’t. I’ll ask him later. After that random talk, they decided to head to his friend’s house and then he’ll drive me to the interchange. haha lame. Send me to AMK interchange which is farther than my house. –.- So, I just decided to go home to home-cooked food. YUM! His friend gave me a light hug (I stress again that his friend is my friend too and we’re close) and he gave me a super tight hug. ^^ Then I went home. I’m smitten. :) Completely. But in a chill way.. like, just struck with awe. ^^ For once, I’m not flirting with someone whom I actually like and doesn’t like me back and I want to keep it this way. Not ruining such a good friendship until how I feel has been reciprocated without me doing anything or forcing anyone. :)

BY THE WAY THAT FRIDAY NIGHT, ELIYY AND I WEBCAMMED WITH HER “Emm”. :D HAHA! BOTH ALSO GOODLOOKING PLEASE! AND WE’RE BOTH IN THE SAME SITUATION. HOW UNCANNY IS THAT?! And she made me listen to a song which is now stuck in my head:

Goodbye friendship, Hello Heartache - Cinematic Sunrise

Snow White

2011-01-12T01:59:00.001+08:00

I really wish I was this fair. Like you all. haha. All my friends have fair skin. Excluding Nazy and Indians. hahha okay Nazy, you HAD fair skin when you were little.. damn cute! please post a picture of you! hahah! Honestly, I can’t wait to step down from wakeboarding and regain my skin colour.. grr! Fair skin and flawless. Two things I haven’t achieved since I got into wakeboarding. ballz. Like keling sia. By the way, that’s the light effect. Something you get when you’re webcaming win the spotlight. Literally, my face is 4 times darker than my neck. Cause my face is most exposed to the sun. Along with my arms and legs of course. After I step down, I wanna run 3km everyday. So, I can be skinny. I’m really gonna do it guys. Don’t underestimate me. I can loose 20kg within a year. But that would make me anorexic. I don’t lie about my weight. I’m 52kg. By the way, this 52kg comes with big assets bitches! lol. –.- If you think about it, i’m only around 4-6kg heavier than average people my height. Atleast I don’t have a bulging tummy. hah. Plus, my muscles do add in to my weight. (Omg I’m so defensive) In a way, I’m definitely not in the right position to lose now since school really take up most of my time.

I started typing this at 8, stopped at that paragraph at 9:30 only re-started now at 1:41 and totally forgot what i was talking about.

Anyway, I randomly remembered about this guy, at the mrt interchange, paya lebar platform. He was walking in front of me and then suddenly he turned around and showed me what he typed on his cell phone, “You’re cute.” Two simple words. MADE MY DAY AND I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT GUY! He didn’t ask for my number or anything else. Just a simple plain text that made my day hella lot! I’m gonna do that to a guy and make HIS day one day. ^^ Honestly, it’s possible! TRUE STORY!

okay goodnight!

Secret Crawler

2011-01-11T15:30:00.001+08:00

Symphonic Studies

2011-01-10T01:59:00.001+08:00

Tonight, I’ve decided to watch HIMYM till 5am, in time for school. I’m really hyped up!!! I even feel like jogging later at 5am but I’m just scared of being alone. Heh. An hour ago, I was just done with studying Analytical Instrumentation for Tuesday’s test. ^^ So, I’m REALLY happy! I feel so prepared bebeh! By the way, classical symphonic music really DOES help in studying~! I just downed some classics by Mozart and some other random people I never heard of. I downed Vivaldi’s album but it needed a password to access the zip file. Balls.

In the middle of studying, I googled up “how to stop myself from procrastinating?”, yes, apparently I was distracted by that thought. So, I came across this website which had quotes and stuff. My favourite quote?

“Procrastination is the fear of success. People procrastinate because they are afraid of the success that they know will result if they move ahead now. Because success is heavy, carries a responsibility with it, it is much easier to procrastinate and live on the “someday I’ll” philosophy.”
-Denis Waitley

The look I give when I see someone I like with their significant half:

< He’s damn cute btw..

Celtic

2011-01-09T13:50:00.001+08:00

My younger sister bought this new brow-haired afro.. HAHA~! So, I’ve wondered what it was like to whip my hair back and forth. :D

This one looks like my head is spinning:

Damn cool.. :D

You know Eliyya’s Blog? I love reading it. She’s so good at story telling. With those italics and stuff. She told me that putting words in italics makes you sound smart.

Peter Piper Picked A Pack of Pickled Peppers
Peter Piper Picked A Pack of Pickled Peppers

Get what I mean now? I mean of course she didn’t use italics on every single word. It defeats the purpose. It’s really nice to read. I’ve tried so much in trying to blog a bit more like her. Less on the lah more on the oh well. Never stuck to me. Ya know? I’m just way too Singaporean. Hah. Read her blog more yeah? It’s nice to read. You should read her Tom & Bill Kaulitz stories. :D

Anyway, I’m going to stop procrastinating now. Exam on Tuesday! D:

(Title of page has absolutely no link to the content of blog.)

Emineming

2011-01-09T13:11:00.001+08:00

You know when you’re listening to your music from your MP4/iPod and it’s on the right timing at the right moment? Yeah well, I was riding the bus yesterday and then this song comes up, Ass Like That – Eminem. So, I looked up and there was this Chinese guy. Tall and his back was facing me. Of course by now, you would’ve known that he has such a fine fine ass. He just HAD to wear sky blue over-washed jeans and it really looked like i can’t even explain.. My face was just:

Anyvay, I finally got myself a proper organizer (refer to 1st picture) and it’s seriously awesome but not worth my money~! Damn ex but it’s ok I like it a lot.Haha… Made in Sweden~! :D Got stickers and stuff.. I went to buy it with Eri and Eliyya. Why’d I mention them? Well, because Eri got me an organizer too! which was wrapped in layers and layers of newspaper so that I would hate her soo much~! >:( But after the insane wrapping paper, I loved her because i got an organizer/weekly planner. GRR~! Yes, this was AFTER I bought mine~! It was an advanced birthday gift~! :D SOO SWEET LAH!!!! WALAO BUT I’VE ALREADY GOTTEN MYSELF AN ORGANIZER~! hahah But thank god hers wasn’t a yearly planner luh… The one she got me was those ones that you fill up your own date and year.. OSM RIGHT?! I call it the Forever Planner. Hah.

< This was the one she got me. It’s insanely cute! and THE RIGHT SIZE AND ITS HARDCOVER! WAHLAO! DAMN CUTE! >:)

Anyway, earlier 2 days ago, hah. I found my old striped top and I decided to make it new. By DIY-ing it. Cut it up. Just that and it looked awesome! to me~! Okay, So, how many clothes have I DIY-ed? 2. Haha.. But they’re awesome!

Uggh… Done for the day..

Not a VIRGIN

2011-01-02T21:17:00.001+08:00

My hair’s not gonna be a virgin anymore. It just lost it’s virginity today: 2nd January 2011, 9PM. I’m dying it dark brown eventhough it would hardly make a difference. HAHA! Just wanted to try it. Imagine that. I’ve never rebond-ed or permed it or dyed it and today, I’m dying it…DYING… or is it DYEING? I think dyeing. yehh! How’d you spend your last night in 2010? I called Nikesh. It was really nice catching up with him. If he goes RP next year, I’m really gonna psycho him into joining the wakeboard team. MAAN I MISS HIM! :D Maybe, it really IS a new year.. ^^

<< I used the shampoo thingy.. Liese… Hope it works! Guess what this reminds me of?

JIMMY NEUTROOOON~!

School’s here! scream and shout! –.-

2011-01-02T17:43:00.001+08:00

Damn the 31-day Decemberlist… It’s the holidays! I don’t always turn on the computer! A new year calls for a new blog skin and new me! haha Okay. For the first time, I actually didn’t aspire to change very much of me. I just like me the way I am. Things that I WANT to change about me would be:

Wake up early

Be more efficient in class

Go to school looking very slack (VEH LAZY LA)

STUDY HARD!

Learn to stop procrastinating

Be more ruggard so I can wakeboard awesomely. ^^

Be happy. ^^

Happy new year everyone! SURVIVE THIS ONE! And may ya’ll be blessed with awesomity! ^^

Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

2010-12-18T04:47:00.000+08:00

Be in the future.

Have a future.

Love who I am.

Love who I am not.

LEAVE RP WITH A DIPLOMA!

And stick by a poem I read over and over again:

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

2010-12-17T04:41:00.000+08:00

I mean, she’s hot, she’s smart and she’s talented. Seriously. Do I have to explain why? She’s rich btw. AND she gets to date Zac Effron. I mean seriously. Some of you would say “ew..” but the new “ew” is robert pattison and you HAVE to admit that Zac Effron is hot. Eventhough I would’ve broken up with him, I can tackle JAY BARUCHEL! <3

But if I HAD to pick someone out of the many people I know, I’d pick……

Cos she plays the guitar, she doesn’t care about what people think about her that much. She SMART and she’s FUNNY!!!! <3 hahahahah! woohoo!!!

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

2010-12-16T04:25:00.000+08:00

Wore a dress to school for the first time. ^^ Awesome isn’t it? There’s a ton more pictures but I chose this one because you can see my DV ring. Eliyy took this amazing photo. Believe me. If I hadn’t met her today, I’d prolly look stupid. hahaha! Oh btw, I have only 1 dress. Actually, 3 but the other 2 are formal dresses for weddings or… prom? I need to buy more dresses like these. :D

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

2010-12-15T04:23:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I don’t have an ipod. I’ve got an awesome MP4 that lasted me 4 years and going though.. And it’s still in awesome condition! ^^

Give Me Novacaine – Greenday
99 Red Balloons – Reel Big Fish
The Downfall of Us All – A Day To Remember
Fall From A Star – Kill Paradise
I Put The “Metro” In Metronome – Cute is What We Aim For
Two World’s Collide – Demi Lovato
How I Met Your Mother – The Friday Night Boys
One Shot 2 Shot – Eminem/D12
Simple Enough – Never Shout Never
Touchin On My – 3OH!3

Day 14- A picture of you and your family

2010-12-14T04:21:00.000+08:00

Full family photo.. taken, 2 years ago.. HAHHAHA!!! Stupid Willy Wonka hair…

Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

2010-12-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

uhm…. I’ll get back to this.

Day 12- How you found out about Blogspot and why you made one

2010-12-12T01:20:00.000+08:00

BECAUSE EVRYONE ELSE HAD BLOGSPOT AND NOT TUMBLR DAMMIT! mafakka’s…

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends

2010-12-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

A bunch of people I simply MISS SOO MUCH!

Liyana – Me – Eri

I fucking miss them

Haslan! Hahaha! Let the good times roll! I love being his friend lah pleaxe! And yup! Another silly person I miss! ^^ WHOOP WHOOP! <3

I don’t have a photograph of me and Ah Sai. Bloody idiot always shy… GRRR!

Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

2010-12-10T01:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY:
- NeverShoutNever’s songs.
- Lemon Tree – Fool’s Garden
- New Soul – Yael Naem
- Cute is What we Aim For’s songs
- Stand By Me – Compiled Street Artistes
- Bling-Bling – Mc Solaar
- Miracle – SuJu
- Tokio Hotel’s Songs
- American Idiot – Greenday
- KungFu Dunk – Jay Chou
- Starlight – Muse
- Shake it – Metro Station
- Oh Everything – A Love Like Pi
- Bulletproof – La Roux
- Disco – Metro Station
- The White One Is Evil – Elliot Minor
- Obteun Bunho – Big Bang
- Mardy Bum – Arctic Monkeys
- 99 Red Balloons – Reel Big Fish
SAD:
- (A bunch of lovey dovey sad songs bookmarked in my MP4)
  - Humans – The Scene Aesthetic
  - Demi Lovato’s songs
  - Joe Brooks Song’s
  - So Close – Jon Mclaughlin
  - Don’t know why – Norah Jones
  - (A few of NeverShoutNever’s love songs)
HYPED:
- Less Than Jake’s Songs
- BigBang Songs
- DBSK Songs
- 3OH!3 Songs
- Eminem’s Songs
- SnapKraklePop!’s songs
- Reel Big Fish’s Songs
- TECKTONIC MUSIC!!! D:
MAD:
- HARDCORE SONGS!
  - FINCH!! (Finch all the way!)
    - Project Mayhem is #1 priority
  - A Day To Remember
  - BROKENCYDE
  - Nobody Takes Pictures of the Drummer – Nora
  - Escape The Fate
  - Senses Fail
  - Underoath
  - Blue Morning – Greeley Estates
  - Attack Attack!
  - Tell Shannon Her Crafts Are Ready – HeavyHeavy LowLow
BORED:
- Boring Town – Less Than Jake
- Tecktonic shit
- Starwars Theme Song
- (I don’t usually listen much.. I stone or watch Star Wars)

Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

2010-12-09T22:45:00.001+08:00

Uhhh… Past few days? I’ll take it as within 2 weeks okay? MY PP POSTER! Quite proud of it. I impressed the facilitators. I hope I get A. ^^ Apart from that I don’t know… Just probably a few good deeds were done.. Like, taking care of a 3-legged hamster right now, Being awesome in yesterday’s class, Training twice this week, wearing a skirt to school for the first time this year (no that’s not a deed) and cheering people up. ^^ Nothing much about being proud these past few days..

GOODNIGHT!

Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

2010-12-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

Get a Stormtrooper figurine.
Go to Cosfest
land my 2-wake jump
Have a Picnic
Tell someone (stranger) that he/she looks gorgeous/cute/good looking today
Get a job for the first time
Revise my science
Revise every topic
Wake up earlier
Get to class on time
Be awesome in class
Get biceps/triceps
Smile a little more
Eat less
GET OVER “IT”

Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

2010-12-07T13:58:00.001+08:00

Someone:

MAMIDI MAMIDI MOOH-MAMIDI~! MOMMEYH!!!! Only my mom has made the biggest impact on me. Nobody else can take that spot. I mean, who else would write fake absent letters for you when you didn’t go to school eventhough you’re not sick? No other mom would take silly pictures of me and get excited when she sees Ruben Studdard eventhough she’s not a fan of him. She practically meets more kinds of people than I do; Japanese, Korean, Dutch. She’s the only person I trust and even when I screw up most of the time and made her upset, She’s always open to forgiveness. Without her, our family won’t be together as close. Only she can tolerate my dad’s temper and go like “Dad’s always like that.. I’m cool.. I’ve been living with this over 20+ years.. Ignore him..”. Only mom taught me the word “Putang-e-namo” which means “fuck your mother”. She’s always listening when I have boy problems and stuff. She’s the bravest mom I’ve ever known. She took care of monkeys before (chimpanzee) which explains why she would be able to care for me. She is the awesomest cook. I mean, after what I’ve done and the people I mix with, I think I turned out pretty well right? It’s not like I’ve ever committed a crime or screwed with anyone. (In which I hope I never do till I get married) heheheh… I mean, I also want my husband to do “it” with a virgin woman right? HAHAH WTF OKAY OFF TOPIC.

Something:

Wakeboarding. I swear, after joining wakeboarding, it created a huge impact in my life. For once, I actually want to be something. I feel awesome everytime I ride. It’s like riding away my problems and when I fall into the water with a huge impact, I know that that’s the only thing that matters and wakes me up from my life. It’s pretty much like my boyfriend. HAHA! (No life sia Mira.. Seriously) NO but seriously, when you have a passion for something, it’s like, being with someone isn’t that important. All you want to do is spend more time and money with that passion of yours instead of for someone else. I don’t know why but that’s how I work. If I were to be with someone, I suppose he/she has to be awesomer than wakeboarding. (Or sponsor me a wakeboard.. hahah jk) I suppose, it really brought me across the days and makes me feel alive and strong. I LOVE YOU WAKEBOARDING! hahah

Day 06- Favourite super hero and why?

2010-12-06T14:45:00.001+08:00

Isn’t the Archangel from X-Men damn hot? He’s like my dream man lah… Definitely “DREAM ON” kinda dream man. Waaah… He’s soo hawt…

Anyway, my favourite superhero is (shit I wanted to say Mystique after realising that she’s not a hero), MY FAVOURITE SUPERHERO IS Invisible girl from Fantastic Four. Awesome right? Basically cause I can just go invisible and stalk people and go naked and go invisible when I look like shit, I go invisible and when I look awesome I can suddenly appear infront of hot guys. Like.. when I’m invisible, I see a hot guy, I run to that area and un-invisible-lise when he’s not looking and walk by and just look awesome. I can sneak out of class, I can mock people without them noticing and I can also scare them into thinking that I’m a ghost. Basically, nobody would be able to see me.

O_O

HANTU TETEK!!!

k bai..

(I’ll put an awesome picture of me here as soon as I get home.)

Who's your favourite superhero and why?

2010-12-06T00:54:00.001+08:00

Who's your favourite superhero and why?

Answer here

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

2010-12-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

I’ve been on top of one of the mountains in Oman. It was my first time on such a road trip and believe me, it was breathtaking. This is a picture taken with a pathetic 3.5mgp camera. Wished I had a better camera. But of course, the best picture would be being there yourself and seeing it with your own eyes. Everything there is fantastic. The beaches, the mountains, the ruins, the food. the people EVERYTHING. Even when I dive underwater, it’s amazing. ^^ Please visit Oman one day people! :D

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

2010-12-04T23:57:00.000+08:00

Habits? Uhm… Probably the ability to procrastinate soo horribly. I get distracted soo easily.. Kinda sucks with my studies. If I wasn’t like this, I’d probably do really really well in class right now. Hah…

Just an old picture I thought I’d put up.. Yeah… I think right, I grew more broader this yeah ah… This picture was 2 years ago I think. Sapao sia now…. (hahah my malay skills are improving)

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

2010-12-03T00:02:00.000+08:00

Me –> Eliyya –> Nazirah

THEY are my bestfriends. ^^ Since we were 13.. :D So, uhm.. 5 years of insane friendship that we gave ourselves nicknames. LoLo 1, LoLo 2 and LoLo 3. LoLo basically means idiot in Hawaiian.. Like.. “Lilo! you LOLO!” hahaha.. We have our own “secret” handshake and everything. It may seem ridiculously childish but HEY! It’s awesome to us~! ^^

Preemal and I. Now, SHE is my childhood friend. Known her since we were like what? 5 years old? So, that’s like.. 13 years of friendship? ^^ The only indian I can tahan.. No.. She’s not arab. She’s Punjabi.. teehee… lucky me! ^^

They’re not my only wakeboard friends! There’s much more actually! So, yeah! This was during the IVP! Awesome! ^^ We got 2nd place in the wakeboard IVP and were ecstatic! 5 years and this is our fist time winning a trophy and the first time I joined a competition. :D

Elsa is my one and only closest buds in RP .. No wait.. She’s like my number one nerdy friend! My ONLY close friend in Year 1 of RP and nobody else. ELSA I MISS YOU LAH YOU CHUBBY BUNNY!!! <3 Whenever I’m with her, my inner mepeks and crappy nerdy side is unleashed.. Me. Not trying to act cool or anything.. Just trying to act cute.. HAHAH

Me->Nadia->Lina.

Two of my current close year two friends.. :D They’re like… Insanely minah&matrep&bimbotic&hipster&allOtherMerek stuff cobined… Awesome kan?

Day 02- The meaning behind your Blogspot name

2010-12-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

The meaning behind my Blogspot name.

Revert: return, go back, take a step back, relapse.

Sunburns: burned skin in the sun due to inflammation and sometimes causes blisters as a result of overexposure of UV rays.

Combine and it means that you want back the unburned skin and you wished you didn’t get over exposed to the sun.

That’s the literal meaning. Take that meaning and combine it with “life”. In metaphors. It simply means that some things can’t be changed and once you get it, you get it. So, this blog just reminds me of the past and the things I’ve done and there are nothing I/you can change about it. Nomatter how much it sucks.

Question?

2010-12-01T01:46:00.001+08:00

What are you gonna do in life huh? Basically, I’ve heard way to many times that people gave up on hope. It bringing me down because these things mean soo much to me. Hope, faith and love. It means soo much. And I would NEVER give up on them. I’m not pinpointing people here okay? Generally, I have a LOT of friends which tell me that they’ve lost hope and just simply want to give up.

Don’t you think it’s a little self-centered? Like, have you ever thought of YOUR future and never dwell on the past and the present too much? Have you ever thought of how people surrounding you might think and what kind of impression you make on them? Yes. I know that many motivators have been saying that you do things, you do for YOURSELF in your own likes but what are these things that you THINK you’re doing a good job at? Yes you should always put your dreams and aspirations first but when it seems like you can never reach them, are you gonna just throw them away? What are you gonna do then? Think about it. Think about your mother, your father and everyone else that mattered more than yourself. Boyfriends and girlfriends? No, they shouldn’t be the reason for where you are now. They’re simply company, born in the world to help you people in life. Have you ever thought of the people who brought you to life? Think about it.

Nobody’s life is perfect and everyone is indifferent. Some people out there are dying and yet they still want to life because they have soo much hope in their lives. People who actually want to keep moving forward. But the sad truth is, that probably only doctors would know, is that they’re dying, and these doctors know exactly when they’re gonna die. I read stories of teens trying to commit suicide. Suicide is what happens when every tiny amount of hope that is left has not been ignited and simply erodes of. These people are killing themselves because they think that life had shut them in a locker and nobody will ever be able to find the keys. Pessimists. If this word was never created and had no meaning, life would be better. The greatest enemy you will EVER face is yourself and I know that my words may come out of a TV screen but when I say it, I really mean it. So, you gotta stand up to this enemy of yours and take your life by the wheel.

It’s absolutely ridiculous and stupid to be losing hope in things that you can regain hope from. The only time you should be losing hope is the exact moment where you’re strapped into the seat of a rollercoaster and you have no way of getting out because you brother has just dragged you there. Or probably when the chicken rice stall has finally run out of chicken rice. Yeah. Lose hope on that since you just have no way out of it. You can never loose hope in TRUST, AMBITIONS and RELATIONSHIPS. It’s the three most ridiculous excuses to lose hope in.

I trust all my friends and even if one trust is broken, it doesn’t mean my entire life has gone down the drain. I can always build up trusts because I choose to. Ambitions. Firstly, I am NOT doing a course that I want to. I’ve always been a philosophical person. Not a scientist. In fact, my science was one of the worst grades I’ve gained in O’ levels. I never loose hope. Always think of the future that if I just screw this up, my mother would have wasted at least 3 thousand dollars to bring me to this place and she has done soo much for me in my 18 years of life not counting the 9 months she took to make sure I was breathing properly in her womb. My ambitions to be a professional wakeboarder will always be there eventhough I’m not that great in wakeboarding. But my mother’s ambitions will always be there too. All she actually wanted me to have is a great job and a job that will earn me a wealthy living.

Relationships. Now THAT is stupid. Isn’t it self –centered to even THINK of relationships? Firstly, it’s not important. (Yes, this is for you.. suck it up..) My mom always tells me that for everyone out there, you will always be able to find a partner. Allah has created a being that will live with you throughout your life and make you the happiest person and contented with life. It’s who you pick and who you desire. Whoever it is, he/she is for you. Everybody will have a chance. So, why loose hope? I may have lost “someone” a long time ago. I’ve been ditched, dumped, cheated and used. SEVERAL times and you are NOT the only one who feels like this. But have I lost hope? No. People who probably feel worse than you are gorgeous people who because disabled in an accident. But mentally stable and normal. Don’t you think that maybe, they find it harder to be in relationships with people they have crushes on?

This may seem as if I was insulting you or something but it’s just that, I can’t believe it. People change other people’s lives and this is DEFINITELY not the way that your life should be changed. I believe that everyone has that little hope left and only they themselves can amplify it. I believe in you and I believe you can do better in your life if only you believe in yourself. You have to stop being so full of yourself and open your eyes to what the world has for you. A million things to do and you lost hope. Take CHARGE of your life because you know you’re not a lame pathetic, sympathetic soul who couldn’t do anything about life.

Out of the night that covers me,
black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be,
for my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance,
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of fate,
my head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears,
looms but the horror of the shade,
and yet, the menace of the years finds,
and shall find me, unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
how charged with punishment the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.

-Invictus

Beginning of the List - Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

2010-12-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

Fact:

I have never rode a proper rollercoaster. Just the dragon ones at the “Pasar Malam”.
I love wakeboarding (It’s pretty much my passion)
I love staring at girls but it doesn’t make me a lesbian. Just that, girls are pretty little things. Aren’t they?
I love astronomy and Philosophy.
I still sleep with a teddy bear
The beach is my second home
I love crafted things
I LOVE STAR WARS! (I’d rather watch that than Harry Potter)
I’ve only started keeping my hair long at the age of 17
I listen to Indie, Electronic, Hardcore and a bit of tectonic. (Yah yah.. poser whatever… We’re all told to be ourselves though aren’t we?)?
I’m Lactose intolerant (But i just can’t resist chocolate)
I hate running. I love ice-skating and rollerblading the most.
I love READING fictional novels. Life stories bore me most of the time unless they’re REALLY good.
When I wake up, I spend exactly 10 minutes in-front of the mirror making faces.
The farthest country I went to (not counting USA because I was so small and didn’t remember a thing) was Oman and I went there alone and I flew in a plane for the first time. I’ve met American people, British people, Scottish people, Arab people and Arabic-African people there. :)

#editted cause I just read the word “INTERESTING” in the title.

Of Love and Life

2010-11-30T00:36:00.000+08:00

So, Asyraf and I had an awesome conversation in which I was supposed to be all emo about but in fact, by replying, I’m actually understanding it more.. He was telling me how he prefers to choose a girl that has a great personality and someone he’d fall in love with. Then he said “Then again, I don’t believe in love”. So I said “Well, I do.” He said:

“Love is a myth created by fools. if marriage is love,then why are there divorces?what IS love?love is bullshit.a fantasy.an escape.a lie.”

So, I suppose I’m quite satisfied with what I said to him. It goes something like this:

Marriage is not love. Marriage is something people THINK that they can live with.. Happily ever after. And happily ever afters are never true. So, “if love is happiness,then why are there breakups and shit?why does love make people depressed?get it?and yea,it only exists in fairytales.”?

Love exists because without love, there isn't hate... it's like saying that trees don't exists because if they do, why do they die? Well, love is a feeling.. not a subject... not an object.... it's just feelings. Feelings change and that's how you get depressed people and break ups. Commitments are subjects... not feelings... It's something people THINK they do when they are in love..they THINK they are in love and that means love has to bring them together and they THINK that they can live with each other.. But that’s just commitment and when you realise you can’t commit, you break up.. So, love does exist..

Moral of conversation is that, you want a guy/girl whom you’ll love AND can commit. Not someone who can do just either one for a short period of time. So, basically, your future husband/wife is THE ONE… ^^ Take your time and not rush.. ^^

If you died right now, how would you feel about your life?

2010-11-29T21:20:00.001+08:00

If you died right now, how would you feel about your life?

Answer here

Shine Shine Shine On… YES

2010-11-28T23:33:00.001+08:00

Don’t mind my younger sister completely disrupting my entire GIF image.. :( Yes yes, One day, I’m gonna force myself to go out wearing RED lipstick. Grrr… It looked good.. heh…

Anyway, I went to the beach yesterday.. Eliyy and I were supposed to chill but then, she had religious class in the evening. Soo alim.. ^^ So, I went there.. hahah.. yes yes alone..I’m not a loner! I’m an independent and beautiful woman. But short. *squint’s eyes* So, anyway, on my way, I saw Afiq! Longboarding at that area. AWESOME! Out of everyone, I see him.. hahah… Not that it’s a bad thing. ^^ The house was empty, and I just couldn’t DO any work at home. I figured that if I stayed at home, I’m gonna just break down again with all the stress I’m going through right now. 2 test’s coming, PP poster presentation and wakeboard stuff and… yeah… So, I just packed some stuff and went to the beach. Picked an awesome spot and stayed till sunset. It was 5pm by the time I arrived at side and I swear. It was BEAUTIFUL.

I remember Pasir Ris beach being much cleaner than it was. I remember being with Uncle Brodie and he used to simply pick up a jellyfish and throw it at my cousin and he had a huge sting on his eye.. HAHA yes, the boys had to pee on his eye. It was really funny. I remember some of us playing pool at that area. I don’t remember exactly where it was. All I know was that, we were all having loads of fun till my cousins grew up and went to college all over the world. Haha. I mean, Scotland and England… Let the good times roll.

Nice sidetrack there. Anyway, I went to the beach and turns out, I wasn’t the only one who went to the beach alone. I don’t know why but there’s quite a number of Caucasians on the east side now. So, when I was at the beach, there were a couple of Caucasians along the beach reading or sleeping or tanning. So, it wasn’t weird at all. It’s quite serene actually. haha. And it was sooo peaceful listening to music and not having to entertain anyone at site. ^^ Afiq asked me if I went there for some kind of deep thinking. Was it Afiq that asked me that? Haha I don’t know but honestly, It wasn’t deep at all. I’m in no need of deep thinking yo. Just de-stressing. It’s like yoga. But less straining. The wind and the weather… Whoa it was PURRRRR-fect! Ooooh lala! Okay I wouldn’t mind going there alone anytime… Or every saturday.. ^^

Packed my stuff at 8 and left… It just became too dark.. ^^ It was still awesome though! K BAI!!!

My 1 Month List Starting December

2010-11-28T01:29:00.001+08:00

Whazzzuuuup!!! As you might/might not have noticed, I do post stuff from tumblr. Not that I don’t have tumblr to re-post stuff. Just that I don’t want a blog where I just RE-POST stuff and I tend to do that with tumblr. So, I have a blog to repost stuff FROM tumblr IF I have anything to say related to pictures/gif’s etc… So, this is something I got from someone’s Tumblr. ^^

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your ~~Tumblr~~ Blogspot name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day06- Favourite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about ~~Tumblr~~ Blogspot and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you

Okay.. Imma follow this as of DECEMBER!

Relax my racing beats.

2010-11-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

I want to dress up for someone. But I don’t know who. There’s nobody and no reason for me to be awesome looking. I want to dress up tomorrow and look good so that someone will come up to me and compliment me… hahahaahahah

My ego needs a boost.. *sigh*

Who knew what got into me.

2010-11-25T22:29:00.001+08:00

Whoa… It felt weird but good after crying last night.. I can’t believe I’m actually not that over it… 2 bloody years.. Oh c’mon Mira.. I think there’s other external problems to me crying last night but I don’t know why. Eliyy, if you’re reading this, don’t come to my house with a stress ball.. It doesn’t work on me.. hahah…

I suppose I feel better now. Since I was laughing my ass off during wakeboarding. Though, I think wakeboarding always makes my day. ^^ Even if it’s just dry training.

I know a lot of people say that it will never be the same but honestly, I beg to differ.

Goodnight nipple people.

2010-11-24T23:00:00.001+08:00

I don’t want to be in “a situation” or a relationship. Whatever you call it. I suppose I just need some man companionship. A dyude who could really laugh and go insane with as a friend. I miss doing that with Mafai and I suppose I’m in desperate need for one. I’m not looking for a crush or anything like that. I just need to balance out my testosterone levels out. Haha. I need my “skateboarding moment”. I don’t want to be girly and shitz. I want to but not always. I want a dyude to actually love hanging out with me without criticizing me unless he’s being sarcastic. I don’t want to be with a guy knowing that he likes me but still criticize my flaws.

Stop noticing my flaws.

All I want is someone who makes me feel awesome when I’m sad. And I don’t want him to think I’m awesome (although that would be nice) I just want to feel awesome by myself. I need something that keeps me going. It’s soo hard when you’ve got a guy bestfriend who’s attached.

One day, I’m just gonna go insane.

#Random Fact:
I need to go diving. I’m not an open waters diver. I’m just a scuba diver because I couldn’t complete my diving course at oman because of some complications which sent me to checkups.. Hah. But I suppose it just gives me a chance to be able to dive with a professional hot diver. hahaha… Like my instructor at oman. Chad. :D

Of The Lovability

2010-11-23T15:04:00.001+08:00

My younger sisterfound this pe little pet hamster chucked away in a decaying wooden cage near the bin of the HDB flat I’m living at. She took her home and we decided to name it Nipsy. (Though I rebelled against it at one point wanting to name it after Obi Wan Kenobi or maybe just SMOSH!) Haha OH I KNOW! Nipsy Smosh.. :D Perfect. It’s got only 3 legs. I mean, SHE has only 3 legs and one furry stump. But she’s beautiful and really hyperactive. I’m glad we took that poor thing home. :D

How To Save A Life:

Smile. It makes their day and you save their life for that day.

Make Paper Planes.

Share Marshmallows. Or SMORES.

Tell a joke. Best way to save a life. :D

Giggle about everything and nothing about them

Have heart to heart talks. It always does help.

Cry together. Don’t cry for no reason though..

Fix things together. Me and bro tried to fix the toaster and ended up breaking it. :D

Come up with silly things for silly stuff. Me and Eliyy came up with T-Shirt titles for gamers.

Save your own life. Be happy.

WOW

2010-11-23T00:02:00.001+08:00

Oh my gawd and I thought things are gonna be back to normal with you and me like friends again but you just HAD to bring it up. I know it’s like a fresh memory but if you’re trying to fix things between us, honestly, why would you even try that when you know you’re gonna ruin it?

Wah I happy happy get to be friends with you again and you just make me feel guilty. I don’t know if I’m supposed to feel guilty.

Nevermind Mirah.. Focus on your studies and wakeboard competitions. Opposite gender situations had always been a last choice. It has been a last choice before I met any guy and it will still be a last choice now. Fuck it! The tests are here and you don’t want any distractions!

Bitchess….

Yes yes.. I’m your lean, mean, bitching machine…

Pity Party anybody?

OH YAY

2010-11-22T15:44:00.001+08:00

MY FONT IS BACK ONLINE! YAY!! It’s working perfectly well… OKAY SCHOOL SUCKED TODAY! I went to school in slippers and baggy pants and a t-shirt.. Boring sia.. and NIFM AGAIN.. Uckfay Ouyay!

FONTASTIC

2010-11-22T00:54:00.001+08:00

HALO HALO! THE FONT FOR THIS BLOG IS CURRENTLY DOWN… PLEASE STAY CALM.. THE WEBSITE FOR MY FONT HAS EITHER MOVED TO A NEW WEBSITE OR DEAD…. whatever it is, it’s an error… mind this fugly font till it’s back up again… ^^

Titonics

2010-11-22T00:41:00.001+08:00

Anybody else ask me to exercise, I swear I’m gonna flip. I train my team every thursdays, I wakeboard every weekend, I work out on alternate days, I only have one heavy meal a day. IT IS NOT MY FAULT THAT HOW I LOOK IS NOT THE LOOK OF SOME HOT SEXY CHICK YOU DESIRE. Motherfucker.

THE HULK

2010-11-21T21:42:00.001+08:00

“Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah Oh yeah”

MMMM… Orgasmic.. Hahah… He didn’t really say that.. Just looked like it… Anyway, I have a random thought in my head.. The Hulk and Bruce Banner.. What is it supposed to show? Muscular people are peabrains and skinny people are nerdy? Every skinny person wants to be brawny? But to be that, they would end up being stupid? HAHAH okay… Non-debatable..

So, I had wakeboarding today with Rasydan and it rained in the middle..(NOO NOt like THAT)….~

Wait I have to cut you in the middle cause my entire family’s having a movie night but kebetulan the TV was on crime watch- channel 5.. So, there was this scene where the police found the suspect’s car and opened the boot of the car. They found a bag filled with money, electronics and some jewellery. The inspector asked the suspect “Sir, Do all of these things belong to you?” So, the man just stone and my mom said “Just say lah that at night you cross-dress.” HAHAH my mom can be hilarious sometimes!

Anyway, it rained in the middle right? We could practically see the lightning in the horizon. Quite scary and the feeling of raindrops on your skin was like pins and needles. By the way, the disadvantages of being at punggol was the fact that the water is murky at some areas.. Polluted as hell. I just thought in my head “mirah, don’t fall here, don’t fall here.” I don’t wanna end up with a dead puppy in my mouth whenever I face plant. The Kallang wakeboard area had a bloated dead puppy but it didn’t end up in my mouth or wahtsoever but it was just gross. ANYWAY, Ah Len (our punggol instructor) was and still is by far the best wakebpard instructor of all!!! I’ve tried both Liquid Force and Ronix board and Liquid Force and now I realise the difference, I wanna get LIQUID FORCE WAKEBOARD SOO BAD!!! :)

A few things I got off Tumblr which I think is AWESOME!

Funny guys are the best lah… We can last forever.. hahah But I wouldn’t want a guy to shut me up with kisses unless I’m delibrately annoying them.. HAHAH.. Oh oh… One truth:

YUMM

2010-11-20T01:27:00.001+08:00

Jay Baruchel’s ASS… Yes.. This is his ass.. A snippet of a clip from “She’s Out Of My League.” The scene where he shaved his balls to make it look bigger… :)

I have an addiction that might/might not humiliate me for the rest of my life. I have an addiction for asses.. Girls ass, guys ass, women’s ass, men’s ass…. I have no idea why but I tend to always look at their asses… Not the size of the bulge on their zippers or how their tits are about to fall out.. (Men and women respectively)

The thing about asses… They’re those two bulging things from your back.. When you see the ass, you see the back and the shoulders and you get:

SEXY BACK.

JayB’s ass is just perfect. Not too big, not too flat… just like a baby’s bottom… Without a doubt, he has the CUTEST ass in the universe..

Of the truth

2010-11-18T19:56:00.001+08:00

Have I ever told you I missed you? Well, yeah I do.. ^^ What I said, I knew it was gonna be horrible.. I suppose I just can’t stand the truth but all I know is that when I’m in need of some kind of understanding, a smile or a voice to wake me up in the morning, I knew you could be that friend. :)

Whoa… 3 posts in one day?! Must be my lucky day ah… or is it 2 posts? If it’s 2, I wanna make it 3 because 3 is my favourite number.

I need to change my blogspot background.. I think it’s a little….. grey…

2010-11-18T19:09:00.001+08:00

YAYAYAYYYYY!!! I’M WATCHING THIS LATER!!!! Cause got Jay Baruchel! <3 <3 <3

Okay dah buhbye!

Oh wait… I’m supposed to study….

buhh

2010-11-18T14:02:00.001+08:00

I’m not in school today.. how very boring is that? Actually, today, I got nothing to say except that I love the lyrics to this cover:

Of Princes and Princesses

2010-11-17T14:55:00.001+08:00

My mom shouted at me from the living room while I was in the kitchen, “AMIRA! PRINCEWILLIAM IS GETTING MARRIED TO KATE!”. I walked briskly into the living room, stared at the TV screen for a moment or two and wailed dramatically, “PRINCE WILLIAM!! I WANTED TO MARRY YOUUU!!!”

Prince William. He’s finally proposed to Kate. I’ve got no idea what her full name is but well, it’s Kate.

So, my mother mentioned that being royal isn’t fun at all. Paparazzi would be at me while I’m wakeboarding. I’d probably have to wear a crown while wakeboarding instead of a helmet. I probably won’t even be able to wakeboard for goodness sake! My P.A would probably come in and say “Today, you have a royal bread fest with the Prince and then we have the royal sunset watching in the evening.” Wow that sounds SOOO fun! –..-

I figure the conversation about children would be a bit like this: (do add in some kind of British accent into this skit) (Do take it as if Prince William got married to me.)

Me: Darling, if we had a son, can we name him Roger?
Him: Darling! Absolutely NOT! We would want to name him either Harry, Charles, Edward, Baldwin, Henry or Adolph!
Me: WHAT?! WHYY?! It’s so cliché!
Him: Simple darling, you want our sons to be called "Prince Henry, Prince Edward NOT PRINCE ROGER!”
Me: What if we have a daughter?
Him: Darling, we would want to name her Elizabeth. It’s a beautiful and prestigious name. Princess Elizabeth to QUEEN Elizabeth.
Me: What if we have three daughters'?!
Him: Princess Elizabeth the first, Princess Elizabeth the second and Princess Elizabeth the THIRD! :)

How charming… Royal names. But I still want to marry a Prince.. Or at least someone REALLY rich and smart.

2010-11-06T00:40:00.001+08:00

If I could make you happy now, I would. Do you want me to be with you? We could re-live the moments. As long as you’re happy.

Thoughts in my head that never got to you

2010-11-04T12:40:00.001+08:00

Hi. So, another day with hearts broken… It was soo hard trying to talk to your friend. It’s like…. I’m really speechless…. Anyway, I’m really sorry if I hurt you soo much but I never intended to. I just broke down after talking to “Ash” because it was soo hard trying to explain to him how I feel.

Take it as… My soul.. hmm, more like my heart…Okay… So, lets say, my heart was broken to 5 pieces…. by my ex. I’m over him lah obviously.. –_-.. And for each piece, I give my heart to a guy I really love and care for and we were almost together…. so, there’s been 5 guys right? There’s not a piece left.. Nothing to get my heart going… And then I met you…. YAY! So, All I have left behind was the veins from that heart… I hand it to you….. But since that was all I had, it wasn’t very much of a heart.. So, that feeling for you is me caring for you a lot, thought of you before and when you’re being silly, I smile and laugh more than I usually do. But that’s it. When I wake up, I feel like something’s missing from my body. Something’s not just right at all..

That’s the confusing part.. The moment you place your hand in mine, my head tells me that I like you (or love you) and that you’d be my man. But my heart tells me…. Wait… Where is my heart? You’re holding on to something that is insignificant to my heart.. That’s when my mind goes insane.. I wake up in the morning and my mind tells me you’re perfect and right before I go to bed,it tells me, “oh, c’mooon… you’re not that awesome..”.. So, which path do I go towards? Lying to myself that I really care for you? or Lying to myself that I don’t? Which would hurt more? So, now I’ve put you in my story.. If I lied to myself that I don’t care for you but in truth, I do, then my other half that doesn’t care for you, gets soo pissed and decides to break you heart maybe a little later into our relationship.. I’d pick hurting someone, anyone, now well over later.. If I had to hurt you, I’d hurt you now.. I don’t want to build you up and THEN hurt you.. Yes I know that things would probably change when I’m with you.. but that’s not what my head is trying to tell me… Because now, it’s not a matter of the heart.. because the heart is long gone…

Your bestfriend called me selfish.. It’s selfish when I don’t even give you a chance.. Everyone told me to give you a chance… I did.. I really did.. I swear to god I did… So, when my heart’s not there, what do I do when I have no feeling for you? I told him harsh things.. Many things that made me look like a slutty bitch… You know how I hurt me? Yes. Me, hurting me and all I have to do is lie to myself.. TRY amirah TRY…. People tell me that… BUT WHY? “Nobody’s forcing you… Feelings come naturally..” Why do you tell me to try? Asking ANYONE to give anyone a chance and try… Isn’t that like being forced into liking someone?

That was when I broke down..

I cannot give what I do not have and I do not have what I’ve already given.. I’ve given my best despite our obvious differences. I’ve held in my mind a a phrase I tell myself whenever I meet a new guy… “No guy is perfect and every guy is different..”… Stop reminding me this.. I know that… The difference was what got me going.. So, why am I not giving you a chance? Why do people repeat this? I did! I did give a chance.. We’re all different people and different people have different thinking..

Why are you upset? It just proves that you really do care for me… It just proves that YES you want to be with me one day. I beg of you to tell me that I am wrong because if I’m wrong, atleast I’ll give myself a chance to slap myself in the face.. You see, I cannot face the future. I have always been a girl who never plans the future because, I suppose I had always been afraid of the future.. I think a lot.. I know.. You being upset is not making me feel any better.. It just proves to me how much I have to get back to you… Isn’t it forceful? You’re not forcing me but let yourself be put into my state.. Would you want to be with me just for the sake of pitying me? Lying to yourself into liking me? or loving? If you are then sir, you are a generous and selfless man. I am not like you then… I can never be someone I’m not..

Can you believe you’re reading my mind right now? All this while, you would’ve realised that I’m talking to myself.. In my head… I broke down and nobody knows why… Don’t pity me… I’ve been through this many times… I actually, pity you more… Don’t you see how insane I may sound? How insecure I sound? How pathetic and immature I sound? You see… This is the exact dilemma going on in my head.. And you still want me?

I may not understand how you feel… Neither would you for me.. I’m not asking you to understand… If you still don’t understand, then just take it as..

Amirah, selfish, bitchy, un-sympathetic liar… Who hates every guy and hates you soo much and all she wants to do is toy with guys feelings.. If you take it as that, then, I shall understand.. I won’t beg for a better name… I won’t beg for anything from you… I will never be you and you will never be me… Maybe, just maybe, the truth behind my words are far beyond your knowledge. And hope to god that I really am a playgirl who toys with every guys feelings..

Oh yeah you made me feel better..

2010-11-02T22:25:00.001+08:00

Yeah yeah… Read my blog when I clearly don’t want you to even read a full paragraph. Can’t blame you cause curiosity killed the cat…

Anyway, my day didn’t go so well cos I actually stayed back to spend time with you before you went for the match which starts at 7-ish… I had plenty of time.. From 4pm to 7:30…

Turns out, it was 4:30 to 6-ish and like.. what? I spent 13 minutes flat with you with the first 5 minutes of stonning? Then had to listen to your friends squabble over who’s gonna do what when I’m right there still waiting for some kind of conversation that has something to do with me but nevermind… So, I just left and no I didn’t expect you to run after me like some idiot but I didn’t even hear your voice when I left.. Never looked back…

Oh yeah? And now I come home to realise that you now know my blog and yay couldn’t be any awesomer yeah.. I don’t know why… I’m not cut out for you… I’m tired and I already have wakeboarding team bonding problems that I have to solve.. (And I clearly don’t feel like opening the door to someone who’s ringing my doorbell right now)..

I’m tired of being awesome sometimes.. (yeah this is my ego part) I dunno what to say already ah.. I’m completely appalled.. Can probably wish Ice Skating goodbye…. Soo moodless now..

I’m not angry, I’m not sad… I’m back to the feeling when before I met you.. Single and drained of energy and witty comebacks..

I’m seriously considering dating girls. The End.

Listen to:

The Lazy Song - Bruno Mars

NERDS!

2010-11-02T21:06:00.001+08:00

I love nerds and I’m gonna marry a nerd one day so he can guide me to smartness.. :)

I GOT MY FIRST A AFTER SOO LONG!!! Nerd faci is a motivation ah.. hahahahah~!

Anyway, I’m ending class now.. Gonna meet Mimz later…

What am I supposed to do? seriously..

I AM SUCH A CONFUSED PERSON!!!

Dilemma 101…

Maybe I’m just not cut out for these kinda ~~job~~ things..

What if maybe, JUST MAYBE, I’d actually want to date girls?

I’ll just look for a smart nerd..

Neglect

2010-10-24T20:25:00.001+08:00

I realised that there’s someone I’ve been neglecting a lot recently. I’m soo caught up with myself and people who are always there for me that I’m forgetting the very person who’d made me happy. The very person who I knew the moment we got let down by our group of friends. The first most beautiful girl I’ve met my entire life. I still can’t imagine if we parted lives because she meant soo much to me. She was always there for me from the moment I met her. She may seem quiet and all but only I know her well. Thing is, I’m not sure if I know her well now. I still love her very much and care for her a lot. I recently went to her facebook page and realised that her past statuses said “I need a hug and a shoulder to cry on.” How could my facebook live feed not show me this? How could I pass the feeling of my very first true best friend? The moment I read that, I realised how much I’ve been missing from her life. I realised how much that maybe, just maybe, she need me. For once mira, spend time with her. She may not have the awesome time to spend time with you but you have soo much time in your hands and you can’t spend a minute with her? Who are you mira? Who am I?

I don’t want to be a person who jumps friends. A person who only hangs out with “awesome” people. I want to be known for good stuff. My friends has always been there for me and now I should always be there for them nomatter how small it is.

Nazirah,

I love you with all my heart. I know I may seem like I’m neglecting you. in fact, I know I did. But I realised that you’re my ex-gf(ehem) and Nobody else is awesomer than you and Eliyy and you know nobody could replace your personality even though I meet new people. Our friendship in the past had made people hate us but people who hate us was the only reason why we were brought together. I now we have people who love us and does that mean we should be brought apart? I love you and eventhough we go to the same school, it feels like we’re a million miles apart. I miss you.

A little truth behind my words

2010-10-24T19:38:00.001+08:00

I know I’ve never completely said the whole truth to you. It’s not that I don’t care about how you feel or that I’m thinking of lying to you my whole life. No. Thing is, I really do care for how you feel. Which is why I find it hard to explain to you. You’re persistent and I know that if I told you I wouldn’t love for a hundred years, you/d wait for a hundred years. I know you care for me a lot but that’s the problem you see.. The exact problem. Even after what we went through, you’d be thinking “oh yeah she’s into me right now.” In whatever lie I say, there’s always a little truth in it. I’ve got no idea why but my feelings for you have absolutely not made a huge significance to me. I may not have known how love feels like for a very long time. But I do know what it is when it’s there. With that, I know this isn’t it.

For a long time, I know love had made me flutter. Made my mind, heart and soul feel like I’m on cloud nine. It made me wake up smiling. Made me wake up thinking of the very person who made me smile. It made me sing stupid songs like “captain planet” in the shower. It made me doodle in classes. Made me smile my entire day. It made me open up and it made me coy. Loving someone isn’t easy but I know when it’s there. The truth is here up in my blog and the truth says that I love you but not very much because you didn’t make me flutter. You didn’t make me feel like flying. You didn’t make me wake up smiling. No. You didn’t make me sing stupid songs in the shower. I still had hope and yes I still had faith but I haven’t got the love that’s written on my candle.

It’s not you, it’s me.

Cliché isn’t it? But as you can see.. For those who actually kept up to my blog, it really is me. It’s always been about me. A boring, pitiful party for one. Greedy selfish, careless person called, me. A person who wouldn’t share their feelings with others. A person who stereotype guys as all the same. A person who is soo insanely obsessed with her ex-boyfriend’s PERSONALITY. (no i’m not obsessed with him.. Yes I’m over him) A play girl who toys with the feelings of guys. Yes. That’s what you can call me. Cause now, I don’t care because., well, if that’s how you see me, then that’s how I’m gonna be. To you at least. I’ve hurt soo many guys I suppose. Cheated their feelings. Cheated my own feelings. Honestly, nomatter how many thousand times a guy tells me “you gotta give me a go” or “you’ve gotta give him a go”, it just doesn’t work that way. I just don’t work that way. There, I’ve given you a go. Given all the least of feelings I’ve got for loving someone. Done all the best I can to care for someone other than myself and the best at “giving you a go”. Yeah well, if there isn’t any spark, I don’t blame you. I believe in fate and I believe in choice but if fate and choice won’t choose, then I can’t just walk forward blindly can I? It’s reckless. Life can’t be a bed of roses.

Harrow Harrow!

2010-09-13T14:48:00.000+08:00

SUUUP SHITHEADS!!!!

I’m now in the middle of doing my Ut and no I’m not procrastinating.. I just simply gave up that’s all.. heh~! Honestly, who want’s to do this qn: ?

My attempt on the above question^:

Hahha nothing I didn’t write anything… Or type at least. All I could do was stone and now people think I’m typing answers but I really am not and I can hear that I’m the only one typing. Hahahah~! bloody hell They must think I’m pretty smart huh? I KNOW RIGHT?! I’m soo awesome!

Anyway, have I showed you my desktop? It really IS awesome I tell ye… seriously.. I’m a mega huge starwars fan~!

It’s awesome! it really is~! well, those icons at the side are gone though and my cursor is like one of the ships and stuff and the windows taskbar is also on a starwars theme.. the tab at the side where the windows flag usually is, is now replaced with a Star Wars thingy… yeah whatevs.. I really think it’s THAT cool~! I never knew Starwars was that awesome until I re-watched everything. You know last time I was a big fan of it because the lightsaber thingys were really cool. I never could understand the entire storyline because I was like what? Only 7? or so.. But now that I’m 18, I TOTALLY understand the entire thing and it’s makes the lightsaber thingy even MORE awesomazing! I swear to gyaddd that people who watched this and hated it should watch it all over again because it really IS that awesome.

What would it be like if Darth Vader really took care of his Leia and Luke?

So YEAH~! he’s be SOO COOL as a dad!! I would want him as my daddy I swear cos well, he has a red lightsaber and it’s cool! :D

Anyway, do you guys watch FANBOYS? It’s basically a story about a group of friends who want to steal the final episode from Lucas’s fortress for the sake of their dying friend. It is FUCKING HILARIOUS!! The main cast of star wars were there such as the guy who acted as Darth Sidious and the woman who acted as Princess Leia~! You should watch it! Awesome shit I tell you! Oh, and yes Jay Baruchel is there..

You know… Jay baruchel

Jay Baruchel? Totes KAYUTE Jay Baruchel? Oh ya know… Hunkydori awesomely nerdy Jay Baruchel.. .. The very same one who acted in the Sorceror Apprentice Jay Baruchel AS the apprentice of the sorceror? … Fan boys is an old movie but Jay Baruchel isn’t..

He’s totaly my new NYUU~! <3 Fucking love Jay Baruchel.. Okay last one…

Haiyaaa.. he’s soo cute lar…

Okay laaa.. I’m done hogging liao.. kk Imma go off within 6 minutes yo!!!!

BYE!

fucking irritating

2010-09-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

Today’s topic is about…. relationships. You know what I hate about them? Everything. Right now, I’m in no position to be:

Loving
Caring
Mushy
Sweet
Cute
Pretty

for anyone and I get soo annoyed by:

Guys who try soo hard to hit on me even after I said that I wouldn’t love them ever.period.
Guys who try to get soo mushy with me
Guys who call me some kind of name… I hate names like poochie poochie or moo moo or kookoo or even baby or cutie pie xx..
Guys who are clingy even before anything happens
Guys who like public displays of affection (i swear, to me, it’s PERVETIC displays of affection) in fact, i would be annoyed when i’m the person looking at these annoying displays of affection.’
Making out.. I don’t like making out and stuff like that… I mean it’s fun but that’s not how I roll

Why can’t relationship be like:

Going to a carnival to play bumper cars
Wrestle with each other
Sending each other lame pick up lines
Insulting each other and ofcourse knowing that we still love each other
Not having to meet or see each other everyday
Laughing together
Gaming together
Listening to each other’s lame jokes, confessions, bragging, insulting, gossip and problems
Tolerating each other’s bad side just by saying “oh I understand you/your situation” instead of saying sorry because I know that if I like that person, my mistakes or my anger shouldn’t cause him to say sorry because i know i’ll always forgive him unless it’s something big that he did.
Knowing how each other are thinking
Not having to debate on personal things like “I’ve been through more than you.. You should be okay”
Using your own initiative to do things for the other party and knowing instantly what the other party’s answers to things like “Do you want me to carry your bag” or things like “Do you want me to see you off?” I mean, things like this take self-initiative because it’s BASIC COURTESY.
Not caring about how the person looks but more to how a person is like
Caring about how YOU take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else.

People who are constantly complaining why a girl never stuck to you or why you always get rejected. The sad, honest truth is, As long as that girl is neat and tidy, That girl would WANT you to be neat and tidy. Which girl wants to spend their entire life keeping their other party neat and tidy for them? You should know basic boys. The one thing most guys lack is care for your face (honestly, not stereotyping but most malay boys are like this). If your face is oily or just simply LOOKS unclean tell me which girl would want to approach you? (oh yeah and some malay girls are also like this hor… You unlucky bastards) EVERY SANE, SIMPLE AND RESPECTABLE girl DREAMS of a guy who is flawless… Not perfect but a guy who presents himself in a very charming way. Presentable and approachable. Polite and straightforward. I sure you know that the type of girl you choose should be the type of guy you’d want to be to be completely excepted. You don’t have to be perfect. All you have to do is look presentable. We’re not looking for the ultimate james bond. We’re looking for a future. Someone who actually can bring us to a good future.

It works for me. I’d want to be with a man who actually has a future and when all else fails, then we could go to plab B. I want to laugh with a man. Be happy and contented. I don’t want to be with anyone who I see as a person I lack care for because I know I’m gonna break up with him.

So, please don’t ask me to be your girlfriend or suddenly be soo fast at everything you sound like a desperado. I’m nothing like how you want to me to be and I never will be. I never want to change myself to something I’m not. This is me and if you’re changing me, you’re the one missing out. I’m not some pet you can train or some barbie you can dress up. I’m human and like every women, we’re the ones making most the decisions. Period.

ILE!

2010-09-08T00:36:00.001+08:00

This is for Elsa:

Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*TSK!
*go away lah awaan

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*u like elsa too!!

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*X3 hahahhahaha it's cos she's just really that awesome lah!

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*elsa looks like a pure girl

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*walao!

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*hahaaha

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*SHE IS
*a pure girl who games a lot
*hahaha

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*ahaha..oh ya..she is! haaha
*that awesome?!
*haha
*thats y u like her?

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*hahhah i'd like her if i was a guy lah!
*i think it's awesome to know a girls who's cute + SUPER SMART + SUPER GAMER
**girl
*it's awesome to have a gf like that
*and she plays the electric guitar
*BONUS!

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*hahaha! aww!

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*what?

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*she talk like a man!

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*who?
*elsa?
*hahah no lah... she actually more girly even when she talks.. she's very open minded and everything but she's quite girly

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*no u

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*hahahha
*WHAT ME
*CCB!

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*hahaha!!
*correct what..

   Erh-Mi-Ra Osm ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*I DO NOT TALK LIKE A MAN

AwaaN Phiepher- I've seen it all, and i've done it all to the fullest says:
*as in the way u say how perfect she is...
*aww
*someone is in love!
*hahahaha

Elsa.. Remember this? : (click to enlarge..)

HEHEHEHEHEH

The Nyonyah’s At This Fashion

2010-09-06T03:43:00.001+08:00

Eliyy and I decided to browse This Fashion and try on clothes just like old times.. ^^ So, we decided to wear something we thought would look damn bad on us cos it looked like the kind of clothes nyonyah’s would wear to a club… Turned out to look real good on us! Mine’s purple and her’s blue!!! :)

Ps. Last 2 photo’s I look damn AH LIAN… I KNOW!

Two Shots to the sky signal sign for the chase.

2010-09-04T02:11:00.000+08:00

Had an awesome Bowling Dinner with them^ ! :)

I don’t know how to explain. It was a long day and all I know was that I had fun!!!! :D You should see the pictures! Damn awesome!!! THANKS MERHAN FOR THE BOWLING TREAT!!! XOXOXOXOXO!!!! Everyone there made me smile mucho much! It was DEFINITELY de-stress from studying! :) I’m glad I forced myself to go.. YAYAYAY!! Can’t wait for another outing with them!

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Listen to:

Stupid Boy - T.Mills (click)
Lay Me Down - Dirty Heads ft. Rome from Sublime (click)

Forgotten, I have.

2010-08-30T18:27:00.001+08:00

Love. forgotten I have.. The feeling it makes. The feeling that’s supposed to sweep you off your feet. What is love? Whatever it is, I hope it takes time because I wouldn’t mind waiting. I think.

Listen to:

This Love - The Baseballs (click)

Of Eliyy, RP, and Starwars.

2010-08-30T02:29:00.001+08:00

It’s been a solid 2 weeks and 6 days since I last blogged. I don’t know where to start. I suppose with the graphic interchange format image above. :O

Elsa and I were supposed to study but Elsa had a workshop to go to so, Eliyy came over and we pretty much entertained each other. I was SUPPOSED to studdy.. Procrastinated till TODAY and my exam’s a week later. Bloody hell. Fuck School! Lets WAKEBOARD! So, ANYWAY.. What did we do? Hmm… Probably typical stuff girls do. Gossip gossip gossip….. Talk about boys… okay.. well, yeah boys and days of our lives.. So, I brought my moustache’s along with me. For those who don’t know what’s the story behind these moustache’s, you can look at a video on my facebook profiled. I did a cover of “Break your heart” by Taio Cruz as Sean Paul, having and indian accent and looking mexican like . Yeah.. Think about it. So, we got soo bored, decided to take some pictures.. Wait… Some? heh yeah right… Then we broke our fast at my school’s TRCC! YAY! Long time no see comprendae.. So, that was a brief summary. As me, well, knowing me, I tend to forget the details of what has happended if I take waaay to long to blog about it. So, you should go to Eliyy’s blog. :)

The next day.. Or the day after that or the one after that.. We decided to meet and uh… OH THIS DAY! I was supposed to meet Nazy and Eliyy but well, I had last minute chores and I ended up being soo late that Eliyy left and Nazy in school alone. So, I met up with Eliyy on her way back to Tampines. Wanted to meet Nazy but she wanted to go home and rest. So, in the end, had another day with just a Lo.. not LOLO but Lo… Singular.. So, initially, we wanted somewhere cold. So, we thought of bedok reservoir as a cooling place. And windy. Realise this kids, never think up of such an idea when you are in an air-conditioned room. Step outside and really see what the weather is like. Apparently, it was dreadfully hot in topica and we couldn’t stand it. We sat under the shade and it was BLOODY windless! (well, almost) and it was soo humid and hot! Bad idea. We were excited on our way there only because the bus has got air-condition. What we did in the end was ride 168 all the way back to Woodlands. HAhah.. Ofcourse, after entertaining ourselves with TP people who were doing some kind of sacrificial rain dance around us. Yep. (okay they were just exercising in circles around the area we sat in..)

Anyway, here ye go!

Oh! Did I mention Haslan’s birthday on the 22nd August. I really didn’t forget his birthday!!! I just kept thinking that I already wished him. So, yeah! big diff!! I got him something I picked out from my memories. Good memories are good keepsakes anyway. So, I got him a bottle of the perfuse he used to put on. It smelled soo good on him I swear. I also have him a little plush. He game me his dinosaur and I have him my little blue.. DOG so that I hope he knows that I’m always watching over him like a DOG. :D ILYAHLAN!

The last thing I wanted to mention was Starwars. I’ve been a fan of Starwars before because I’ve watched it like… a decade ago and I seem to have forgotten what Starwars was like..So, I decided to re-watch everything. IT WAS AWESOME! Now I remember how freaking good that movie was! I’m a huge fan of Starwars ALL OVER AGAIN! YAY!! I still love Obi Wan Kenobi. He’s soo fuckin gooood and hooot~! :D hahah and I love the story line! The Droids are soo stupid and funny and everything! The lines~! So, since I’m a Fanboy all over again, I decided to re-incarnate my fanatic features. Such as, Starwars Themed desktop, icons, cursors.. EVERYTHING! I’m even thinking of changing my blogskin to Starwars soon. I think it’s SUCH a great movie! better than everything else! :D Is Sanator Padme Amidala immortal? She seem to NEVER age… She’s a cougar btw.. hahha!! It’s sad how Anakin fell for the brainwashing evil deeds of the sith.. So, anyway… A few snaps…

And there was this one point where Queen Amidala says “Without the Viceroy, They will be lost and confused.” She was referring to the enemy Aliens but I realised how this could apply to smokers too! :D hahahh AAight! I’ve got more quoting to do! So, I’m gonna watch StarwarsEpisode 4 later! TOODLELIDOO!!! *hugs*

Fasting month

2010-08-12T11:31:00.001+08:00

I remember when ‘Eliyya and I use to come up with ridiculous rules of fasting. Basically, you’re not allowed to have pleasure while fasting (which is not true and we know now) or stick anything into your body. So, these are the few in which we came up with.

No putting stuff in your mouth:
- No candy
- No air = no oxygen = no breathing
- No food
- No words (Derived from “Stop putting words in my mouth!”)
- No saliva (always spit)
No seeing things that makes you “impure”
- No looking at guys
- Not their hair
- Not their feet
- Not their shirt
- Not the tips of their nails
- No looking at yourself if you look like a boy
- No liking how you look
No touching to make yourself feel good
- No touching guys
- No touching yourself
- Don’t let your hands touch each other
- No scratching
- No rubbing
- Be careful when you put on clothes
No pleasure
- No smiling
- No music
- No walking
- No moving
- No fidgeting
- No looking
- No blinking
- No twitching
NO NOTHING

So, yeah~! LAME! Okay~! I’m gonna have to get used to not wakeboarding and hugging people. I accidentally hugged Adiel yesterday and uhh he gave the “eeerrgh~!” comment and I instantly felt guilty. I looked like an idiot by the way. HA~!

Anyway, my facebook has this new album and most of it came from Saosin’s old singer, COVE’s tumblr. AWESOME YAWW~!! :)

Ps; Hungry Ghost Festival and Fasting month at the same time? Not Ironic yaww~! Don’t you see who the hungry ghosts are? (teehee no offence.)

Listen to:

Bling Bling - Mc Solaar

Shiksa - Say Anything

(Click on the play buttons)

KERO-CHAAAN~!

2010-08-12T09:11:00.001+08:00

Finally done with my episode 1 to 70 of Cardcaptor Sakura~!! Damn awesome I SWEAR~!! I really really love the show~!! :)

Anyway, it’s the last week of schook for this semester and I’m supposed to wear a dress to class today but I didn’t because (a) I’m lazy and (b) I’m fasting.. Ha… Good excuse Amirah..

Anyway, last weekend, RPWAKEBOARD TEAM went batam to cable ride. I’ve never cable rode for wakeboard before and I still don’t like it bacause I can’t even stand up lor.. Sucks… But kneeboarding was fun and that day itself was fun!! ;) Since the place was humongous, every time you fall anywhere further than half the area, a motorbike would come get us. Well, that’s fun but getting out was not because the sand felt a lot like stepping on bad shit. Warm, muddy, moist and soft. EW! >:( So, I ended up just taking majoroty of the photographs with Dorcas’s camera. Almost all.

Met new friends and stuff. After that, we planned to go clubbing after Batam but decided to call it off because most of us were just waaay too tired. So, out of 30 people only 3 people: me,asha and mirza didn’t go home that night. We went to Sentosa and tonned there all night.. :) Mirza tagged along with us cause he’s got no keys and the only way for him to get in was to climb through the window but he was too tired to do so. So, he was sleepy right? He slept at Sentosa. He practically made up his own little home under our shelter and slept there. We all dozed off that night to stupid Azzura clubbing music. The beach party was damn pathetic. A LOT of indians and very little people at the same time.. It was seriously boring. Mirza initially thought it would be fun to go to Azzura but he was wrong wasn’t he? Mirza fell asleep as soon as he lay down on his board. So, Mirza was asleep and Asha & I were simply slacking around. Azzura ended and 3 angmo guys came our way. One of them came up to us and started talking crap. I don’t even want to begin with. He left, Asha and I pretended to sleep. Hhaa.. Then, we really did sleep. The night was cold. Worse than being in an air-conditioned room. Oh yeah, at one point, I felt something crawl across my foot, then I saw it crawl up Asha’s neck. A COCKROACH~! She shrugged it off but Mirza freaked out and told us he wouldn’t be able to fall asleep then. But he did anyway and he snored worse than a snort. Like omg..

I’m not gonna teach your girlfriend how to dance with you. ;O

2010-08-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

Kate Moening is my ♥♥♥♥♥!!!

Been watching a lesbian drama. O: It’s called The L Word. ♥ She acts as Shane.. The James Bond of The L Word.. haha Charming, sexy and to die for. :)

This lesbian thing, I have a feeling it’s making people think I really AM a lesbian. O_O And this is SCARING me.. LQTM! –.-“

Just to confirm, people, I AM STRAIGHT~! I think.. haha.. I mean, I love being with guys over girls but I wouldn’t mind being with a girl. Yes yes, I’m starting to think that I’m contradicting myself. hahah~! What? Girls are such sexy beings. Playing coy, goddesses. And bubble butts and firm boobs appeal to me not because I’m soo sexually attracted to them but because I envy them. (Obviously I have nothing of that sort) ESPECIALLY if they have a very nice drop dead figure! :) Much loves~!

By the way, this girl: is soooo cute lah~! I love her hair and her originalty~! She really has the guts to be herself and not be influenced by people around her who claim themselves to be trendy.. I mean, you’ve got the looks, the ass, the bosoms, doesn’t mean you’re smart right? I believe her plan is to be super smart and THEN look the part.. HELL YEAH~!

Elsa’s right! this is DAMN EPIC~! HAHAH~! ♥

By the way, Pree, Eliyy & I are gonna go see the Tokio Hotel Interview~!!! ♥♥♥ ULTIMATE L♥VE!!! I AM SOO EXCITED I’M SPEECHLESS~!! gaaah~!

AND I CAN’T WAIT FOR BATAM AND MY FIRST VIRGIN CLUB EXPERIENCE WITH MY POKEMON~! ♥

SAIONARA~!!!

Ps: I want to show off my friend because I can.. :)

This is Jan. (HI JAN~! YOU ASKED FOR IT~!) *hugs*

Listen to:

I Know How To Say - 3OH!3 (click)

Soo much more depressingless :)

2010-07-26T01:50:00.001+08:00

Hahaha~! I’m really sorry about my previous post people~! It’s depressing~! I know!!!
Anyway, I’m a changed man~! I have things to do now~! Like watch sakura and The L word at home~! :D I guess I’m starting to like the fact that I’ll be busy all the time~! Being distracted and stuff~! :)

Anyway, I’ve confirmed my next semester’s courses~! ^^

I’m glad there isn’t any real focus in mathematics or physics.. Just bio stuff in which I’m quite fond of. (I love biochemistry~! Just not the facilitator.)

Eliyy came over last Saturday because she read my previous post and decided to be a psychology for the day. I’m telling you, she brought RIDICULOUS stuff because I already have them in my cubboard.. hehehe.. It’s soo sweet for her. :) But I gess tking like this really isn’t my kinda thing.. I just can’t.. If I want to talk to someone, I can only give subtle hints.. Not the whole thing.. I can’t think like that .. But I was feeling better anyways so yeah.. :) I suppose I just needed to get out of the house..
Anyway, we went to get some stuff on that day and we ended up getting more stuff than we intended to. Like, Jenga and this old game we used to play.. :)

I swear~! It was the most random day of my life.. After that, I wore the most weird clothing ever and left to meet asha and wendy and afterwards, sam. :) For like what? an hour or so and then went to meet mom.. ^^ It’s okay… I got hugs from them and Sam is one of those guys who give the most dreamy of hugs everrrr~! :) It’s gentle and long lasting.. Like awwwh~! ^^ Made my day~!

Finally, after waiting for the pictures for soo long, I’ve got pictures by Phel & I~! I swear this boy makes my day like no other boy~! He’s got the cutest pair of eyes and the most charming voice.. (hahah Hi Phel.True Story.) Anyway, here they are~!

ahah~! okay~!!! Now I’m done~! toodlelidoo~!!

Meet my pokemon: Snoremunchlax a.k.a Phelax:

Just a teeny tiny post I would just like to scream..

2010-07-19T02:00:00.001+08:00

From the moment I came back from Oman, my life has been a roller-coaster. I WILL name names~! Josh, Dan, Amali, Adele, and someone-who’s-face-is-in-my-head-but-not-his-name has used me. Five guys used me in a row. Especially Josh Josh Josh Josh Josh in which I even used to have a blog for. He read and up till now, he never said sorry. (Don’t you dare judge me when you don’t know the whole story). My own bestfriend, one of the first I’ve made in high school is lost somewhere there. (Though we still talk sometimes). 8 guys had just told me I’m fat. Or at least called me fat even when I didn’t ask. I have 4 days a week of science and the amount of days of school i have is well, hmm.. FOUR. I’ve never liked science and now I’m having doubts about taking this stupid goddamn mudder of a course. Everyone’s having a relationship problem. Everyone’s looking for love. (Not literally can you guys just take things metaphorically or something?Stop saying “not everyone”). People are crying over someone they care and I’m still at the point of crushing on someone who’s already obviously used me and threw me away. The people who actually like me are my really close friends and I cannot like them back because they’re my really close friend. 2 guys have just stopped talking to me because they got rejected.. After what? After I said “I really treat you as my close friend”.. There is no one out there whom I like who ACTUALLY WANTS to be with me for who I am. They kiss me because I can and not because I am. (learn literature you narrow minded people) They judge me by how I look and not who I am. Even after spending an entire night together making each other laugh, even after me sacrificing my time and my FRIEND’S time to make you smile, even after skipping school to spend time with you, even after all that, you guys end up as a lie. A lie I wasted my trust upon. I throw myself upon your feet, all you do is ask me to polish your shoes and then you walk away. I’d do anything to make you smile and now what? You’re gonna tell me you’re bored? Oh no, I’ve changed? No wait, it just didn’t happen? Oh even better, you never felt anything? You guys are thick you know.. really thick.. The only way I can make myself happy is to make sure my friends are all happy. It had always worked that way. After this, for how long? For how long can I keep to what I say? I don’t know. I’ve met soo many people and I’ve seen how they reacted when I batter my eyelids the moment they glance at me.(not that I do that to EVERYGUY). Sometimes I think to myself, am I really that invisible? What I’ve done, is it really that common? Am I that easy to let go of? That easy to forget? Tonight, I ask myself a lot of questions because I can’t answer them. When was the last time I heard a secret from someone? A secret about a guy secretly having a crush on me? When was the last time I heard someone tell me that I’m perfect? That I’m not too fat and not too skinny, just right? Honestly, sometimes when I see someone I think I have a crush on and tell my friend next to me that I have butterflies in my tummy, I really actually don’t. That person only makes me smile because of who he is. When was the last time some guy gets really excited to see me and smile and wave? When was the last time I got genuinely excited? I don’t know. I see couples everywhere. I see guys everywhere. That’s the point where I undo my hair and hide my face in the shadows of it. I sometimes just can’t bear looking like this. I love myself a lot. But sometimes I wished someone would see me as how I see me. I know everybody has different perspectives but they all want to see in their own perspective. I know this is a lot of ranting but I just feel like.. I need someone to actually care for. One particular person I can go crazy with. One person I wouldn’t get annoyed. One person who isn’t too fast or too slow. I probably need a clone of me. I just need one person. Be it a girl or a guy. So, those girls out there, honestly, you hate your boyfriend? Yeah, okay, wait till you get to my stage and you’ll be thinking “fuck-it. Imma be a paedophile”.. (I didn’t think that way though) Seriously? Fuck your life? okay I cheer everyone up (at least I try) and I go to classes giving them brownies. I let them tease me, I let them annoy me. At what cost? Sometimes, I feel really numb. In class, I just want to sit there.Just sit there and not do anything. I never had enough time to be with myself. I miss the beach. Soo very much. My sacred thinking place. It’s right around the corner of my house and I don’t have the time for it. If I cry, it may make me feel soo much better but I can’t. Everyone’s talking about their lives. What about mine? What about the people in africa? What about the people who lost their sons in the army? What about them? They live a harder life than me and a harder life than you. These little things kept me going. But I miss things that help me feel alive. The things that make me, well, me.

I need a SINCERE hug soo bad but only soo many people read this ridiculous blog. Not a lot of people care about your life unless other people, gossip-worth, are involved in it you know..

OFF WITH THEIR HEADS~!

2010-07-10T23:47:00.001+08:00

After edit. I tried RED lipstick today and it looks good~! Too bad I don’t have a good enough camera to take a good picture of it.. *sigh* I miss wearing make-up ya know..

Anyway, I had a conversation with Dorcas a.k.a Tabitha today and she was ranting at mehh~! She said “I hate people.. I’m starting to live in denial.” Guess what I said? I said, “D: Don’t live there! Live in a house~!”… That made me giggle okay? I am so funny! –.-“

ANYWAY,
last thursday I watched Benny and Joon. EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH IT! (If you haven’t.) It’s really fantastic~! Well, directed. It’s soo sweet and cute and amazing at the same time~!

So, today, I watched Red Riding Hood and Alice in Wonderland. It’s wonderful!! I think my sister has magical powers. I just thought of watching Alice in Wonderland yesterday. It was a thought! Not even a think-out-loud kinda thing~! And today, she rented it~! Freakin love her!!

Anyway, my mom’s birthday is in october and I’m thinking of writing her a poem in malay. I need LOADS of help ofcourse! <3

Goodnight!!

OFF WITH HER HEAD~!!!

Gaaah~!

2010-07-08T10:51:00.001+08:00

Just a few pictures I decided to put up on my blog to get my mind off things.
-Me and my bro on that BBQ thing with his friends.
-My year 1 short hair.. Awwww~!
-My today’s morning hair.
-The day I drank an entire bottle of orange juice (which is soo not nice)
-The day my faci kicked me out of class to buy a face mask because I had my morning sinus. Cheebai

Listen to:

Shake - E.Via (click)

Let me Light up the sky.

2010-07-08T10:42:00.001+08:00

IVP’S OVER~!!! Fucking love it~! We got SECOND~! Last year we were 5th but this year, SECOND~! WOOOHOOOO~! GOOD JOB WAKEBOARDERS~! The entire even was really dramatic and being part of the competition really proved how much we wanted the trophy. Our FIRST trophy~!

YEAH~! WE HAD A DRAW~! and the tie breaking score is only by 15 points~! woohooo~!

My awesome Juniors ^ Raynee & Asha

With SOME of my juniors ^

Competing team ^

DONE~! I’m uper duper tanned like a “keling” but oh well~!Bye~!

Fucking scared

2010-07-05T15:52:00.001+08:00

BO is my favourite cat.
20 reasons why this cat is the best cat in the world.

1) He greets me infront of the door before I could even OPEN the door. (He just stands there waiting for me)

2) He’s an adventurer and wanders off whenever the door is open

3) He’s my pest control

4) He has a way of looking at me whenever he wants me to pick him up. He literally tilts his head at me with his chest high and his eyes wide.

5) He eats whatever I eat

6) He’s stubborn whenever he wants to.

7) He loves cheese like how I love cheese

8) When you call for him, he doesn’t answer, he just goes to you by surprise

9) He has really soft paws. You can hardly hear him walking.

10) He’s very smart when attacking the other cat, Tiger.

11) He runs under the duvet when he hears a loud thunder.

12) He’ll try to open the toilet door when he needs to use it.

13) He pees in the toilet bowl

14) He sleeps beside my laptop when I’m busy using it

15) He’ll join me in my bed when it’s raining at night.

16) Eventhough when he has really long claws sometimes, he NEVER retracts them on me like.. EVER

17) His tail is soo short and he knows it and he hates it and he hates it when we poke fun of his tail by grabbing it..

18) He hangs out on the space above the fridge and annoys people who opens it(the fridge)

19) He has his own teddy bear and like a dog, when we take it from him, he’ll take it back and bring it to his favourite place in the corner of the kitchen. (and that bear is 3/4 his own size.

20) He talks to you… Like… really… Only when he wats to but he does..

Haha omg my convo with elsa..

2010-07-03T01:23:00.001+08:00

MIRAE Dompierre ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*omg that song
*^^

ლ(^◡^ლ)       ELSA SAWADA says:
*OMG ARMIDAGGON?

   MIRAEGEDDON ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*WHUT?!
*miraegeddon
*like..
*armageddon
*but
*mirae
*religious views: miranism
**miraenism

ლ(^◡^ლ)       ELSA SAWADA says:
*OMG LOL
*THATS COOL

   MIRAEGEDDON ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*hahaha
*no more dompierre redi ah
*we broke up
*divorce redi

ლ(^◡^ლ)       ELSA SAWADA says:
*EHHH
*WHEN
*OMG
*NO

   MIRAEGEDDON ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*yesterday ah
*he angry with me wanting to go longboard
*so, yeah
*so, he like... jealous ah
*then we fight
*because of longboard we fight
*Then hor, he asked me to quit wakeboarding also
*then i said "kaaneenabeichaocheebai~!"
*but he dunno what that means ah
*so, he angry with me cos he duno what it means
*we fight even more
*then he chokeslam me u know
*like chris brown and rihanna
*then i kicked his bearings
*wah he damn angry siol
*then I dunno ah... I asked for divorce

ლ(^◡^ლ)       ELSA SAWADA says:
*LOLLLL
*OMGGGG

   MIRAEGEDDON ☮, ♥, (:      says:
*ask him to "go fuck yourself and marry your board"
*then he said "FINE~! Don't come crawling back"

Okay so, I’ve got IVP Wakeboard competition and I feel like there are bees in my tummy~! I’m competing against 2 NUS students and 1 Sp student. Won’t get through ofcourse~! doing this for experience~! WISH ME LUCK!!

Of peaches and jackfruits

2010-06-28T23:53:00.001+08:00

Peaches:

-I went out with bro to ECP and met up with all his work friends.. ^^
-We were both using British accents because we were “British adoptee’s” on that day.
-His friends are really nice and I took photo’s for them
-They’re like a crazy bunch and i freakin love them eventhough they’re around 20+ people of which i do NOT know at all..
-I went straight back home after that.

-Had training day after that(today)
-Saw Ydah and we had an awesome chat~! She’s the same ol’ same ol’
-Training is at Kallang which is damn nice please~!
-The water is soo damn flat
-There’s no jellyfish~!!
-After an angry Paul for my first slot,
-I finally landed my reverse sideslide(touch water) perfectly!
-and 3 subsequent tricks all in one day!!!
-I’m soo goddamn happy because i learnt 4 tricks in one day!!
-My arms feel les tired. (Ironic isn’t it?)
-Tiny bonding time with the 4 guys. :)
-Paul sent me to interchange at Kallang.. :)

Jackfruits:

-It’s still awkward around bro’s friends
-I left early alone

-Had a super painful face plant at Kallang because Paul was soo damn fast with the boat
-Cerella said that 2-wake is needed for Novice. It’s a must
-I’m not confident with 2-wake~!
-My hands have bad-to-be looking blisters.
-I found out that someone is bringing someone to the competition.
-That someone is not even taking part in it!!
-So what for bring the girl?!
-SOO KPO!
-And I wanna throw a brick at his face now
-I really don’t like that someone now
-Oh, did you know I’m grounded for a month?

Summary- END!

GOODNIGHT!

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare.

2010-06-24T00:17:00.001+08:00

So, I’m still at school. Waiting for my dearest Preemal. I’m going to start my training from tomorrow onwards. My HARDCORE training. My legs would be jello by 3rd of July seriously. You know what? I hate my school. Especially for it’s funny schedules. School just started last week and I already have a second UT next week on the 2nd of July. I feel soo fucked. It’s a rocky road this week. I need to study more to make it up to my 2 missing days. I’m missing 2 days of school for training to realise that I have UT on Friday next week. It’s torturous. I have training. Then I’ll be back feeling soo tired from everything. My hands would be filled with blisters.

Anyway, I’m outside the gamelan room waiting for Preemal and Rasydan’s sorta accompanying me. It’s better than sitting in the canteen alone like some idiot you know.On our way home, Preemal and I were comparing how Rasydan and Merhan are soo alike. And how the both of us have such similar love stories. Haha~!

I’m home now. I need to do push ups~! Prepare for my double trainings tomorrow. GOODNIGHT PEEPS!

And that’s the song.. the only song made me move on repeat.

2010-06-20T18:28:00.001+08:00

I’ve decided to stop talking in really broken English. It might just rub off on my RJ’s. Sometimes, I really don’t know why people speak singlish. It’s despicable really. We’ve heard it way too many times and sometimes, I hear that language in TV shows. LOCAL TV shows ofcourse. It’s not helping Singaporeans improve their English. We shouldn’t be wannabe’s neither should we put ourselves at the lowest class of all languages. Singlish doesn’t even exist in the first place really.

I think the government’s really contradicting itself. Or should we blame the media? Who would know? We’re only Singaporeans. It’s all silly really. Honestly, I think we’re all pussy’s. Mind my language but in a way, Singaporeans are afraid of each other really. We’re afraid of what we’re going to face in the future. Afraid of what we ought to become. Our lives are so sad. We need instructions for everything. We need a sign in MRT’s and buses that tell us to give our seat to old people, pregnant women, handicapped people and mother’s/father’s with kids. We need people to tell us what to do and what not to do such as where to smoke or where you’re supposed to throw your rubbish away. Are we really that inconsiderate? Most of us are nonchalant about others. Honestly, think about it. When did you last volunteered? (mind those who have volunteered for many things. Hats off to you~!)

Another thing, what’s with everyone looking like everyone else and everyone trying so bad to be original? I mean, nothing’s original anymore. Just new and improved~! DEAL WITH IT! Stop complaining because what? You think you’re original? seriously? Only tell me you’re original if you wear animal costumes everyday (hands down). Seriously, each shop sells DOZENS of the same thing and don’t tell me only YOU bought it? Can you just live life and not be so narrow minded as to stereotype people as this and that? The only thing you can classify people correctly is either it’s a female or a male. The end. Stop poking into other people’s business based on your contempt excuses.

What is with the auto tuning in every single piece of music everyday? Can’t be an orthodox can it? Hope not. It’s annoying! Everything sounds cybernetic! Where’s the original base of genre’s? Hip hop, pop, rnb. It sounds horrible with the auto tuning. Unless your piece of music REQUIRES synthesizers like electronic music and stuff. It’s like, every song is starting to sound the same.

You know sometimes you want to start something and suddenly you see it everywhere? Well, yeah. It’s longboard season now. It’s very… well, generic. I see it everywhere and now, I’m thinking “screw this! I’m going to ice skate on cement!”. (oh uhm.. there’s this thing called rollerblading?) Oh well, I’ll stick to walking for a while until everything just dies down.

Alright, I’m just going to head off for a shut-eye~! Dream about getting my backside-slide and 2-wake within four days before my IVP competition. I miss riding behind Riff’s scrambler. It’s soo bloody fast. :)

Ciao~!

Glitz ‘10

2010-06-19T00:44:00.001+08:00

There was this glitz award thing the wakeboard people had to attend.. it’s a sports award thing and all of us had to wear formal.. Got REALLY excited because i’ve never worn anything formal.. As in.. not FORMAL formal.. which is damn cool~! My efforts were good~! I wanted to wear blazer but oh well.. maybe next time… It wasn’t cold… And hot guy in cheerleading.. Wah the cheerleading team damn hardcore.. Anyway, took some pictures with the peeps.. ^^

And my favourite picture iiisss…..

It’s soo damn nice okay~! I feel like james bond..

Then had an awesome dinner with mucho laughters…I’m too lazy to tell stories.. hahah!

Okay goodnight!

I love my wakeboard team~! <3 <3 <3 (yes yes yes i’m valley tanned..

So, I’m obsessed with how I look

2010-06-13T05:37:00.001+08:00

I changed.. a LOT… I just realised how I looked soooo goddamn different.. I feel caterpillars turning to cocoons in my tummy.. It’s like.. WHOA~! and I WEIGH THE SAME OKAY! I have this obsessive thing about my weight.. I keep thinking that I’m fat (thanks to some people). So, now, I’ve got the habit of eating one heavy meal a day.. Which is a bad thing because your metabolism weight slows down and actually stores MORE fats.. So, I googled… :D and I’ve come to a conclusion… I HAVE TO EAT MORE! D:

Anyway, it’s 5:30am and I’m blogging.. I obviously can’t sleep.. Don’t ask.. I just can’t… (oooh Jan’s online~!) Oh OH OH!!! I’m really proud of myself for being able to do my 1-wake jumps 5 times in a row! hell yeah!! <3 I’m sooooo not ditching wakeboarding anymore~! I need to develop my arm muscles more in order for me to be able to land my 360 sideslide.. gangdammit!! I CAN’T WAIT!!!

Hmmm.. what else? I’d like to meet someone new.. New friends always make me happy! (Don’t worry! I still love my current ones!) Anybody wanna be my next victim? Hands up! (lalalala~! everybody get ‘em hi’)

I have to wear formal on wednesday.. :( Sports award coming up and I have to go.. I’m not used to wearing skirts etcetera etcetera… It’s annoying.. Do I have to wear heeeels? Please say nooooo~!! :(

I better go to sleep before dad wakes up..
GOODNIGHT!

Oh, and you know what I miss? I miss blogging like I’m telling a story. Nowadays, I’m just simply blogging like some “typical cheebye singaporean lidat”… Where are my bombastic words? Aiyah… wait another aeon okay?

Si bei sian…

zzZZzzZ

ARMY DAZING!

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Gonna upload vids here so next time i can watch again. :D

Yes Yes In my tight white dress

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Call me rebellious and a shame to womenkind/malays/muslims but yes yes I know I’m wearing a bikini and i have a piercing but hey! There are worse people out there~! Don’t take it out on me~! I’m a hypocrite blablabla~!

Oh wells.. We only live once… I’m going to hell anyways…

Haven’t been blogging for quite some time… Hate me or love me but these past few months had been quite a rocky road.. I have my ups and my downs but I like where I am.. (I am too optimistic.. I get that a lot)

I’ve pretty much been used 3 times in a row… So, that’s the sad part..

The FLIPside is, every perfect boy is either a poser or…
WAAAY too good to be true…

Btw, I’VE GONE PAC-A-HOLIC!

My blogskin is pacman and lookie at my desktop and msn
(click to upsize):

My icons are pacman characters, my wallpaper is its maze, my cursoris also pacman animations, my msn skin is pacman theme.. YAY! hahahah I quite like pacman… and yes yes.. the pacman ghosts are my computer games… pokemon, harvest moon, mario etc.. I quite like nintendo games…

Am I irritating you? yes? yes I am.. (Keep up the good work amirah)

Eliyy brought me to some bento stall and I am CRAVING for SUSHI now!!! I need salmon and it’s unborn family.

Okay.. I’m off~! ciaoo!

mega update much?

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Been Studying quite a lot of biochemistry.. I swear I cannot take this.. It’s soo freakin annoying~!!!

Soo many drama happening for the past few days~!

Definitely a LOT of bad things.. I just don’t want to blog it.. All I can say is that I just don’t care how much someone tells me “every guy is different” because so far, they’ve all been the same… Fucking piss me off every bit and I just don’t have the heart to feel differently.. Like I said.. What’s another two years of waiting for the right someone again anyway? I just really couldn’t believe that my two years of waiting for the right someone ended up with me getting used.. Yeah yeah that’s me.. Weak little infidel. Am I too optimistic really cause after what Eliyy mentioned yesterday that “Life is like a film.. we need the negatives first..” Lol.. or something along those lines… I can’t deny the fact that I have tearing moments for someone like me but neither can I deny that I’ll keep falling and I WILL pick myself up..

Anyway, I’m getting a bellybutton piercing because Adiel wouldn’t let me get a tongue piercing.. Who is he to me? My wakeboard junior yes yes (in her tight white dress)…But I think that bellybutton piercings would hurt less.. Okay my plan for money:

Malakai 40 : $340
Belly Button piercing: $ 42
Total: $382

Aim, by end of june holidays..

Yes yes Imma get this on my fat tummy:

Okay hmm… then now what?
Oh yeah Eliyy and I are gonna have a sleepover next saturday and I have wakeboarding on friday and uh Imma be getting piercing on saturday also.. omg soo many things happening..

Oh I realised that everytime I was going to call Eliyy, she calls me at the same time.. –.-

Oh and we have a lot of different perspective of the kind of people we hang out with and the kind of friends we want to meet…… I mean, my friends and her friends can NEVER click and i don’t like her kind of friends while she doesn’t like my kind… That sorta thing.. The irony is that we’re both BESTfriends… hahaha Like weird huh? Anyway, I was at esplanade yesterday with her and there was a flashmob and a show thingy and I saw Zaf who was working for the show thingy which is kinda cool cos he gets pain 12 bucks an hour just to move stuff around and sit around and watch all that.. Soo unfair.. >,< So, yeah.. now what? I need a job.. I can’t put up the video’s.. i’m too lazy now..

Oh oh oh~! My hair is long~!!

Eliyy and I went to ROME by the way..