Had a great chat with Eliyy and a not so great one with an rp friend. Motherfo. Firstly, what is love? Why do people claim that they hate falling in love? Why do they take “love” as THINGS?! Firstly,

LOVE IS A FEELING AND NOT A THING! When you fall out of love, you’re not in love! It’s not so complicating! When you feel a liking for someone, you just freakin like them!

  Someone on Facebook, status-ed that he “hates girls” and is so heartbroken and all. The very same person who freaking charmed me and some of my friends into liking him and then ditching us. The very same person who used pitiful reasons to KISS us and make us think he loves us. KARMA FUCKING WORKS ASSHOLE.

  So, I was telling my rp friend the situation and you know what he said? “All girls are blind. And some are poisonous.” Apart from that, he says that girls are blind to see what men sacrificed for them. May this boy be burned in the Deathstar. (by the way, he liked me – or still does- but i never gave him a chance because why? Honestly, i’m not into him at all and he asked why i never gave him a try.) So what did I say?

  “NOT EVERY GIRL IS SOME KIND OF THING YOU CAN CLASSIFY INTO. NOT EVERY GIRL IS BLIND AND NOT EVERY GIRL IS POISONOUS~! People DO get married and people DO end up happy together~! IT's a matter of how you chose them and it's a matter of how you treat them. I see every guy as a new being. Including you and every guy is different. Including you. And I don't want to know what it would be like if we ended up together because sometimes, i could already predict. So, I guess, yeah, girls are blind when it comes to a guy who can charm them. That's why the word "charm" is invented. If I charmed you, and ditch you, you would've been blind too. I have had a boyfriend in which I sacrificed so much for and he was blind to see. Nobody's perfect but there's always a perfect someone for you and you can't classify people into categories or stereotype them from what you THINK you see. They may wear the same clothes, talk the same way but like a fingerprint, they're all different. I for instance, am not blind to see. neither do I poison people. So, like what? if 20 guys like me the same time, are you all going to say the same thing huh? do i get together with all 20 guys just to TRY?”

So, yeah. Do I LOOK like I want to go on 20 freakin dates and flirt with them? Do I freakin look the type at all? The main point is that not every girl is a bitch like you lot had so over-dramatically exaggerated! Get a life okay.
It’s okay if a guy dates like, 100 women but you guys know that it’s NEVER a good thing when a girl does that. We have respect for ourselves and in terms of girl-boy situation, everybody knows that men are alpha-males and they’re meant to lead a pack. Girls? We lead a pack and we’re called sluts/flirts by OTHER GIRLS. Stop asking us to give you a “TRY”. Stop blaming us when all we say was the truth!

  LIKE WHEN I SAY I WOULDN’T FALL FOR YOU, I GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING WOULDN’T BECAUSE I KNOW MYSELF AND EVEN IF I TRY, THE FUCKING HARSH TRUTH IS THAT I WILL FUCKING BREAK UP WITH YOU AND BREAKING UP WITH YOU WOULD MEAN YOUR HEART IS GOING TO BE BROKEN LATER THAN IT SHOULD’VE BEEN WHERE IT FREAKIN HURTS LESS! CAN’T YOU ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I DON’T WANT TO BREAK YOUR HEARTS ANY LATER THAN HOW IT’S BEEN BROKEN?!

  SO, YEAH, YOU’D SAY “BUT IT’S ALREADY BEEN BROKEN.” WHY COULDN’T YOU JUST EXPECT THAT?! WHY’D YOU GET BLINDED BY WHAT YOU THINK WE FEEL? WHY DIDN’T YOU ASK US HOW WE REALLY FELT?! WHY’D YOU HAVE TO AGREE TO EVERY FIRST THING WE SAID? WHY CAN’T YOU GUYS TAKE A HINT?! WE ALL HAVE MINDGAMES AND IF WE CAN FIGURE OUT YOURS, YOU CAN FIGURE OUT OURS!

Fuck it. Starwars is the shit and my dream man has to love watching Starwars with me on a couch in the living room where the TV is right in front of us and we’re eating chips getting mindfucked with all the Starwars soundeffects. Oh and guess what? We’ll be in our cool Starwars PJ’s. THIS is love.