I’m glad 2010 is here and I’m ready to start everything a new and let the past be a past. I’ve realised how much has changed in 2009 and how much I wanted to fix things but I guess, some things are NOT meant to be fixed. I’m ready to get over, get real, get high. :] It’s time I start new stories. Last year had been like boot camp. I let things happen just as they are. This is why this year, I am going to MAKE things happen. It’s time for me to take “tongkat”, take charge!

So, here’s pretty much how I’ve changed. Like my mom said, I’ve femininiated. (Her version of saying that I’ve become more feminine. In a way. I like that and I’m still the same me just more feminine. I still do sports and I still listen to hardcore (and a lot others now). I’m just less of dyude-wannabe. haha. I think it’s all just really lovely for me. Being in poly helped me come out of my shell. I’m more outspoken than I usually am. W15Q is the class for me maan! I really love being with them and even though there are so many misunderstandings at one point, we DO know that “MIS” is the keyword in the situations. It’s not like we MEANT to hurt anybody. Was just a mistake and it’s really got nothing to do with backstabbing. Why hold your grudge on something you didn’t like to happen when it was just a simple secret let out and that secret shouldn’t even BE big. Honestly, NOBODY CARES. It’s all silly and it’s not like anybody helped to fix it. So, it’s no one’s fault and everyone’s fault. Maybe you lost your trust over it. But what ever for? For your OWN self-pity? You can’t care for your self right? Why does it have to be YOU? Self-centred piece of shit. C’mon. Live on. Okay. That was sorta off topic but I just to get things straight.

Last year, I also let one boy control my feelings for every other guys. I’m sorry dyudes and I didn’t mean to. I didn’t mean to cheat your feelings. This year, I’m NOT going to do that. I’m DEFINITELY gonna know how to say NO this time. I’m gonna meditate my way through next year. (omg I want ice-cream).
I honestly think now that REAL SKATEBOARDERS TEACH OTHERS and NOT mock them behind their back. And I can definitely compare YOU poser skaters to the REAL ones. No shit. I love my new friends <3. I also know that there are sooo much better people than you sir. Yes you. But I DO know now that I didn’t regret making the decision I made between us but I DID regret trying to fix things. I’ve realised that I’m actually happier without you. (Some people don’t be soo naive and think that THIS is about you.) Sucker.

I’m soooo over skateboarding because I can’t really find it as something I want to really do. It’s sooo mainstream nowadays. I see it everywhere and I especially hate the mats now that most of them are skating. (but I still love my skate friends please. K?) Now I am me and ME loves wakeboarding.

New years and I've got sooo many things I want to do. I’m definitely going to MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. Such as a 2 wake~! and a 2 wake 360~! And a tantrum~!! okay too much. I won’t look for anyone out there. Not because I can’t or I’m some unrealistic person who doesn’t believe in love. but because I don’t want to. I just like going with the flow and seeing how everything will work out. I’ve got too much in my mind. It’s full of OTHER things. ;]

I’ve definitely got to focus. My final semester in rp has been inconsistent. Not cause I’m too proud. My first month had been really good but after the first UT, things happened and I couldn’t cope. I’m going downhill for the second UT. I swear. I was starting to hate school and I hate how it’s going to end for the second UT. I’m going to fail second UT and I know that. My strongest subject is cognitive and I know THAT won’t help me score. There’s two UT papers left when school re-opens and I know I can’t make it. But I’ve now a tought to just focus on my studies. Maybe I’ll be a bit more inquisitive and “not me” but it’s for the better.

Anyways, I’m getting a new blogskin too!! I’ll be downing photoshop and getting a tablet for my PC. My current inspiration is Strawberry Avalanche. I’ve roughly put some things together for my rough idea. I put some pictures together so you guys can roughly get what I mean.:

YEAHP! I’m going to draw some person(or alien since I’m not good at drawing people) with it’s mouth open to an avalanche of strawberries! :D And Haslan’s going to help me with my sketch. He’s really good at the shading and stuff like that. I really suck at mine.

I’m also thinking of getting a job to support my own wakeboarding and also for my clothes. Furthermore, I’ll be continuing my studies in Korean language, :) It’s a mega step but I’ll try my best to learn Korean well.

I’m off to study~! hope you guys have a blessing year ahead~! :) Live everyday like it’s the last day.

Awesome music video by the way. (Y)

Seee yeaaah!